[ That's not much of a response, and Derek knows it. He dwells on whether or not he wants to open up to Jackson Fucking Whittemore, of all people, but it's - important that they talk about this. ]
My sister had just died. My uncle was the one who killed her. There was this kid - Scott - who was, essentially, an omega. Vulnerable. Easy prey. Dating an Argent. Every time I tried to help him, he accused me of trying to kill him. He called the cops on me when he dug up Laura's grave. And then there was you. Naive and narcissistic. You treated everything like it was just a game. I thought you were stupid. You didn't know how dangerous being a wolf could be. I was scared. Angry. All the time. At you. At myself. At the world. When I became an Alpha, I thought it would stop me from feeling like that. Scared, angry. It didn't. For a while, things were almost worse.
[ and then erica died. and then boyd. isaac left him. there's another pause. he's about to lie a little, but it's for the greater good. ]
I'm not scared here. Not angry. I know better, this time. I know how to be an Alpha, I know how to take care of people. I know how to take care of myself. Trusting me might be a mistake. That's up to you to figure out. But I'm not - like that anymore. Violent and impulsive. Judgmental. I can do better.
no subject
I'm not the same person I was back then.
[ That's not much of a response, and Derek knows it. He dwells on whether or not he wants to open up to Jackson Fucking Whittemore, of all people, but it's - important that they talk about this. ]
My sister had just died. My uncle was the one who killed her.
There was this kid - Scott - who was, essentially, an omega. Vulnerable. Easy prey. Dating an Argent.
Every time I tried to help him, he accused me of trying to kill him. He called the cops on me when he dug up Laura's grave.
And then there was you. Naive and narcissistic. You treated everything like it was just a game. I thought you were stupid. You didn't know how dangerous being a wolf could be.
I was scared. Angry. All the time.
At you. At myself. At the world.
When I became an Alpha, I thought it would stop me from feeling like that. Scared, angry. It didn't. For a while, things were almost worse.
[ and then erica died. and then boyd. isaac left him. there's another pause. he's about to lie a little, but it's for the greater good. ]
I'm not scared here. Not angry. I know better, this time. I know how to be an Alpha, I know how to take care of people. I know how to take care of myself.
Trusting me might be a mistake. That's up to you to figure out.
But I'm not - like that anymore. Violent and impulsive. Judgmental.
I can do better.