[Tate's been thinking about this a lot, actually. For a long time he's been considering how he feels about the whole thing - putting it off, inadvertently or otherwise. He didn't want to commit and he's still not wholly sure he wants to, in a selfish way. It means giving up a lot of things, surrendering so much more than he really is willing to surrender. But every time he says 'wait' or 'in a little while from now', he risks Derek feeling rebuffed just enough to never trust him again. Risks Derek growing tired of him, tired of waiting, and leaving. Worse yet, he risks losing him to Reggie entirely.
So while he may not truly want this on all levels, he does seek the sense of connection it would theoretically bring. But he has to wonder about the authenticity of that - Reggie's a beta for Derek already, but they don't have the undeniably, all-encompassing bond that Tate wants with Derek. Will being a beta really do that for him? Or is he just still hoping for far too much?
He wets his lips, lifting up a hand to take a hair away from his mouth - using the moment to stay silent before his dark eyes flick to Derek. He wants to own him, to be - fucking undeniably the only thing in his world. Part of him already knows that's not possible yet...]
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So while he may not truly want this on all levels, he does seek the sense of connection it would theoretically bring. But he has to wonder about the authenticity of that - Reggie's a beta for Derek already, but they don't have the undeniably, all-encompassing bond that Tate wants with Derek. Will being a beta really do that for him? Or is he just still hoping for far too much?
He wets his lips, lifting up a hand to take a hair away from his mouth - using the moment to stay silent before his dark eyes flick to Derek. He wants to own him, to be - fucking undeniably the only thing in his world. Part of him already knows that's not possible yet...]
Then bite me.