[It's the second time he's said it and it feels just as vulnerable as the first time. He's looking at Derek, and instead of anger and frustration there's something else.]
We can do whatever you want, just--stay. I'll fucking stay sober if you want.
[If Derek wants to fuck because that's what they're used to, fine. If he doesn't, also fine. But Kavinsky cannot handle the sight of someone else walking out the fucking door right now. He pushes himself up a bit, hating how desperate he feels. Hating how weak this makes him feel. But he's fucking... trying. He has no idea what the fuck he's doing, but he's trying.
They both suck at this. But Derek showed up. He fucking showed up and that means something, right? Something Kavinsky isn't sure he wants to investigate too closely, because it's possible it will go up in flames like everything else he touches. But Derek is here.]
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Don't.
[It's the second time he's said it and it feels just as vulnerable as the first time. He's looking at Derek, and instead of anger and frustration there's something else.]
We can do whatever you want, just--stay. I'll fucking stay sober if you want.
[If Derek wants to fuck because that's what they're used to, fine. If he doesn't, also fine. But Kavinsky cannot handle the sight of someone else walking out the fucking door right now. He pushes himself up a bit, hating how desperate he feels. Hating how weak this makes him feel. But he's fucking... trying. He has no idea what the fuck he's doing, but he's trying.
They both suck at this. But Derek showed up. He fucking showed up and that means something, right? Something Kavinsky isn't sure he wants to investigate too closely, because it's possible it will go up in flames like everything else he touches. But Derek is here.]