[Maybe it means something that he can't even think of himself with that name, but he is so desperate to hear it from someone else that isn't trying to use it to hurt him. Every time it feels like another hook catches him and he knows if he tries to pull away now it's going to fucking hurt. So he doesn't.
He focuses on Derek as his fingers push back into his mouth and it's just intense. It always is. He keeps that focus when as he pulls his hand away and it moves between his legs. Kavinsky's eyes nearly close as they push in. He cusses softly and grabs at Derek instead of the bed, getting a hold of his arm and the back of his neck as he's fucked just right. He's dedicated more energy to learning Derek than he has with most of the people he knows here. He tries to remember everything. And it's wildly obvious Derek's done his own version of that because he knows exactly what he's doing.
He can feel pre smear against his skin as his cock throbs and his hand tightens on the back of the other man's neck when he hears that whisper. He lets Derek get a few more words out before dragging him down into another kiss. He tries to keep it softer, the way Derek did earlier, even if it just--
It fucks with him. Derek fucks with him.]
Come on, [he breathes when they part, voice tight.] I need you.
[He's fine. He'll be fine. He just needs to feel closer than they are right now and it hits him with an intensity that he only gets with this man.]
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He focuses on Derek as his fingers push back into his mouth and it's just intense. It always is. He keeps that focus when as he pulls his hand away and it moves between his legs. Kavinsky's eyes nearly close as they push in. He cusses softly and grabs at Derek instead of the bed, getting a hold of his arm and the back of his neck as he's fucked just right. He's dedicated more energy to learning Derek than he has with most of the people he knows here. He tries to remember everything. And it's wildly obvious Derek's done his own version of that because he knows exactly what he's doing.
He can feel pre smear against his skin as his cock throbs and his hand tightens on the back of the other man's neck when he hears that whisper. He lets Derek get a few more words out before dragging him down into another kiss. He tries to keep it softer, the way Derek did earlier, even if it just--
It fucks with him. Derek fucks with him.]
Come on, [he breathes when they part, voice tight.] I need you.
[He's fine. He'll be fine. He just needs to feel closer than they are right now and it hits him with an intensity that he only gets with this man.]