[ he can't justify his choice to talk, really. he spent his entire life hiding what he is, because whenever he didn't, people died. paige, his family. but then he became an alpha, and then he lost his pack, and then he was scrambling for power and security in the fort through every avenue he could find, and then he met rosalind, who worked with stiles and seemed to trust him, so he didn't peg her as a threat, and he thought... maybe if he had just said yeah, i'm an alpha, i'm a werewolf, i'm big and i'm tough and i'm scary and i'm strong, he would have felt the way he was supposed to? in control.
but he didn't. she just made him feel like an idiot, because that's how he was acting, and he feels stupid every time he thinks about it, and that's why he doesn't like her. but he can't say that to stiles. and he can't say that to rosalind. he just has to dig his heels in, act tough. wait until he finds a way to dislike himself less for his mistakes. which, you know. good luck. ]
Anyway. Yeah. You're right. I've never heard of a self-loathing vampire before. I've never heard of a self-loathing supernatural creature before, for that matter. Totally trust her, now. Nailed it. Rift mended. (And you do dress pretty poorly.)
[ a pause. ]
Sorry. ADHD. I should have known that. Should have rummaged around in your bedroom more. I always just thought you were kind of a spaz. I didn't realize.
[ wait, that's a shitty apology. eh, it's fine, stiles probably knows what he means. more importantly: ]
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[ he can't justify his choice to talk, really. he spent his entire life hiding what he is, because whenever he didn't, people died. paige, his family. but then he became an alpha, and then he lost his pack, and then he was scrambling for power and security in the fort through every avenue he could find, and then he met rosalind, who worked with stiles and seemed to trust him, so he didn't peg her as a threat, and he thought... maybe if he had just said yeah, i'm an alpha, i'm a werewolf, i'm big and i'm tough and i'm scary and i'm strong, he would have felt the way he was supposed to? in control.
but he didn't. she just made him feel like an idiot, because that's how he was acting, and he feels stupid every time he thinks about it, and that's why he doesn't like her. but he can't say that to stiles. and he can't say that to rosalind. he just has to dig his heels in, act tough. wait until he finds a way to dislike himself less for his mistakes. which, you know. good luck. ]
Anyway.
Yeah.
You're right. I've never heard of a self-loathing vampire before. I've never heard of a self-loathing supernatural creature before, for that matter.
Totally trust her, now. Nailed it. Rift mended.
(And you do dress pretty poorly.)
[ a pause. ]
Sorry. ADHD. I should have known that. Should have rummaged around in your bedroom more.
I always just thought you were kind of a spaz. I didn't realize.
[ wait, that's a shitty apology. eh, it's fine, stiles probably knows what he means. more importantly: ]
What do you mean "super sick"? What happened?