I know. I will. I want to. I don't want to mess up again.
[ like he did with allison. liiike he did just now, exploring this cave by himself without letting derek know.
the creepy, drippy cave sounds paired with the near-pitch darkness is starting to freak stiles out a little more. he still has the light from his phone, but he's already had to turn down the brightness to conserve his battery - it's not dangerously low, but he doesn't know how long it's actually going to take derek to come and get him and he doesn't want to risk it - which means the light only reaches so far before everything is just. dark. super dark, pitch black, almost the way stiles imagines being completely blind would be.
his anxiety climbs a little with the thought, and he swallows hard, and just to kind of fill the eerie almost-silence, he starts to hum a random song under his breath, something his dad used to sing to his mom like a big ol' idiot, just to make her smile. it's a sad memory, but it also soothes him somewhat. ]
It was a cop, actually. A cop who's also a hellhound, but. Irony, you know. He wasn't exactly aware of what he was doing. At least not like, the human, law-abiding part of him, anyway. Still sucked though.
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I will.
I want to. I don't want to mess up again.
[ like he did with allison. liiike he did just now, exploring this cave by himself without letting derek know.
the creepy, drippy cave sounds paired with the near-pitch darkness is starting to freak stiles out a little more. he still has the light from his phone, but he's already had to turn down the brightness to conserve his battery - it's not dangerously low, but he doesn't know how long it's actually going to take derek to come and get him and he doesn't want to risk it - which means the light only reaches so far before everything is just. dark. super dark, pitch black, almost the way stiles imagines being completely blind would be.
his anxiety climbs a little with the thought, and he swallows hard, and just to kind of fill the eerie almost-silence, he starts to hum a random song under his breath, something his dad used to sing to his mom like a big ol' idiot, just to make her smile. it's a sad memory, but it also soothes him somewhat. ]
It was a cop, actually.
A cop who's also a hellhound, but. Irony, you know.
He wasn't exactly aware of what he was doing.
At least not like, the human, law-abiding part of him, anyway.
Still sucked though.