That's not what I'm saying... I'm saying that I never wanted to define our relationship by the bite. By what I hoped we could have had. I was never going to sweep the rug out from underneath you by taking the offer back at the last minute. Just didn't want to force you into changing if you ultimately decided you didn't want that. Wouldn't have made you pack, if it's not what you needed. You had the final decision. If helping you the way I was trying to help you wasn't working, then we could have stopped at any time - we didn't have to train, or fight, or anything like that. Didn't have to search for an anchor. Some people aren't made for being wolves. I wouldn't have cared about you any less if you were one of them. I wanted you to be a wolf, but if that's not who you were meant to be - I wouldn't have cared about you any less. Still would have given you everything I could have given you. This isn't about control. I told you that. I've been telling you that over and over again.
[ he can't get out of this without tate thinking he's the bad guy. this is the same shit that's going to happen with isaac - tate's already decided he doesn't want to be close, and he's using derek's uncertainty as a launching point to get out of this as painlessly as he can.
they shouldn't even be talking, at this point. this isn't going anywhere. tate's just scared and bailing and done with him. which... fine. maybe that's for the best. ]
I thought I was making you less scared. Thought you trusted me the most.
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I'm saying that I never wanted to define our relationship by the bite. By what I hoped we could have had.
I was never going to sweep the rug out from underneath you by taking the offer back at the last minute. Just didn't want to force you into changing if you ultimately decided you didn't want that.
Wouldn't have made you pack, if it's not what you needed. You had the final decision.
If helping you the way I was trying to help you wasn't working, then we could have stopped at any time - we didn't have to train, or fight, or anything like that. Didn't have to search for an anchor.
Some people aren't made for being wolves. I wouldn't have cared about you any less if you were one of them.
I wanted you to be a wolf, but if that's not who you were meant to be - I wouldn't have cared about you any less. Still would have given you everything I could have given you.
This isn't about control. I told you that. I've been telling you that over and over again.
[ he can't get out of this without tate thinking he's the bad guy. this is the same shit that's going to happen with isaac - tate's already decided he doesn't want to be close, and he's using derek's uncertainty as a launching point to get out of this as painlessly as he can.
they shouldn't even be talking, at this point. this isn't going anywhere. tate's just scared and bailing and done with him. which... fine. maybe that's for the best. ]
I thought I was making you less scared.
Thought you trusted me the most.