[ stiles cuts derek down so quickly and so successfully that he feels less reassured for being stupid and more just lightly humiliated for being stupid in the first place. he's relieved, obviously, but he's also mad at himself for needing to be relieved in the first place, and he takes a long, long moment to just stare at the ceiling and dwell in his feelings.
kate fucking ruined his self-esteem. it's only been getting worse, since finding out about home, about his failures as an alpha. he knows he's been getting less and less easy to deal with, but jumping from i'm going on a walk to i want to break up with you was such a clingy, weak-willed leap that he just. jesus. needs to be better.
derek lays down. in the living room. he drops onto the hardwood and stares up at the ceiling, vaulted and distant. ]
You don't seem unhappy.
[ dot dot dot. ]
You seem really happy, actually. It's hard to believe. Sometimes. That I could make you happy like that. So I get in my head. But that's the kind of stupid, insecure shit someone's supposed to grow out of when they're young. So. Not gonna apologize, because that's annoying, but I am going to tell you that I love you and that you're even more of an idiot than me, which is a fucking feat and a half.
[ ,,,,, dot dot dot. ]
Do you ever think... about our future, though? Not - about how it'll work, with this place being... temporary. But about. Us. In general.
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kate fucking ruined his self-esteem. it's only been getting worse, since finding out about home, about his failures as an alpha. he knows he's been getting less and less easy to deal with, but jumping from i'm going on a walk to i want to break up with you was such a clingy, weak-willed leap that he just. jesus. needs to be better.
derek lays down. in the living room. he drops onto the hardwood and stares up at the ceiling, vaulted and distant. ]
You don't seem unhappy.
[ dot dot dot. ]
You seem really happy, actually.
It's hard to believe. Sometimes. That I could make you happy like that.
So I get in my head. But that's the kind of stupid, insecure shit someone's supposed to grow out of when they're young. So.
Not gonna apologize, because that's annoying, but I am going to tell you that I love you and that you're even more of an idiot than me, which is a fucking feat and a half.
[ ,,,,, dot dot dot. ]
Do you ever think... about our future, though?
Not - about how it'll work, with this place being... temporary.
But about.
Us.
In general.