[ stiles is shutting down. he's curling in on himself and hiding and saying things about himself that derek kind of hates reading - saying he's stupid, saying he's selfish, worrying about being inadequate against some hypothetical stranger that could never compare to him. derek's uncomfortably still next to him while he reads, and-- honestly, it takes a long time for him to reply. the light on his phone goes dim before he does. ]
It's not selfish, but - I wouldn't do that. I don't want to know, either.
[ that's not true. he'd want to know. of course he'd want to know. he wants to know if stiles has been with anyone now, because he has to have been, at least once. it's just - he'd get jealous, and he'd get angry, and for all the efforts he's trying to make here, all the attempts at maturity and being reasonable and shit like that, he - isn't. mature. he isn't reasonable. someone would get hurt. he would hurt someone over this.
derek drags his hand down his face. he feels sick, and he can't keep eating, so he just... sets his sandwich down on the floor next to stiles' drink. ]
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It's not selfish, but - I wouldn't do that.
I don't want to know, either.
[ that's not true. he'd want to know. of course he'd want to know. he wants to know if stiles has been with anyone now, because he has to have been, at least once. it's just - he'd get jealous, and he'd get angry, and for all the efforts he's trying to make here, all the attempts at maturity and being reasonable and shit like that, he - isn't. mature. he isn't reasonable. someone would get hurt. he would hurt someone over this.
derek drags his hand down his face. he feels sick, and he can't keep eating, so he just... sets his sandwich down on the floor next to stiles' drink. ]
Do you actually want to go to sleep?