Yeah. That might be worse, though. At least if it meant something - at least if I'd decided to screw around - I'd have been in control.
[ Not that it ever could have meant something - not that Derek's saying he'd have preferred it if it meant something, because seriously, the last thing he'd ever want is to hurt Stiles - but at least if he'd felt more clearheaded, more in control of the situation, he'd be able to say he never lost his bodily autonomy. He's pretty desperate to keep a firm grip on that shit, after everything back home.
Ugh. ]
This couple... I don't know if they're a couple or not, but - I think they are - They approached me. Wanted me, together. One of them asked me to share the other with them. And... we shared. That's all.
The full moon makes me kind of fucked up. The masks really pushed that feeling. Made it bigger. Made me more... starving. For everything. I just really needed to fuck. Dominate. I got that. At the Carnaval. Partially with them. Partially with others. That's what this city does. Starves you. I feel like it's just easier for them to starve me, seeing as I'm already starving half the time already.
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That might be worse, though. At least if it meant something - at least if I'd decided to screw around - I'd have been in control.
[ Not that it ever could have meant something - not that Derek's saying he'd have preferred it if it meant something, because seriously, the last thing he'd ever want is to hurt Stiles - but at least if he'd felt more clearheaded, more in control of the situation, he'd be able to say he never lost his bodily autonomy. He's pretty desperate to keep a firm grip on that shit, after everything back home.
Ugh. ]
This couple... I don't know if they're a couple or not, but - I think they are -
They approached me. Wanted me, together. One of them asked me to share the other with them. And... we shared. That's all.
The full moon makes me kind of fucked up. The masks really pushed that feeling. Made it bigger.
Made me more... starving. For everything.
I just really needed to fuck. Dominate.
I got that. At the Carnaval.
Partially with them. Partially with others.
That's what this city does. Starves you. I feel like it's just easier for them to starve me, seeing as I'm already starving half the time already.