[Hard question to answer for two reasons. One, the way he and Kavinsky both are is violent and disastrous by nature. They hurt each other and they hurt themselves and that's how they thrive. That's how they bond. But that's not the narrative Tate needs here, not when he wants to win Derek to his side and keep his two worlds from colliding. The other reason is - well, he doesn't want to really admit that the way he lives is toxic. He knows it may not be right, but he doesn't need Derek to remind him of that.
But if anyone looked at the way he did things with Kavinsky, they'd see how fucked up it was. How it is. How he was held down the first time they fucked, how aphros and drugs were the reason they bounced off each other to begin with. Tate was out of his head at the party when he was coerced down onto his knees for the first time - and it won't be the last. He can live with that, he makes it work. Kavinsky, despite the hurt and harm, also gives him the attention he thirsts for. An out for the violence he can't express any other way.
It's evident by Tate's expression that he's struggling to find words. Struggling to admit, maybe because he's afraid of what'll happen. Last thing he needs is Derek crossing paths with Kavinsky, threatening to fuck him up.]
... Define hurt.
[Is it being tackled into a wall, choked or restrained?]
no subject
But if anyone looked at the way he did things with Kavinsky, they'd see how fucked up it was. How it is. How he was held down the first time they fucked, how aphros and drugs were the reason they bounced off each other to begin with. Tate was out of his head at the party when he was coerced down onto his knees for the first time - and it won't be the last. He can live with that, he makes it work. Kavinsky, despite the hurt and harm, also gives him the attention he thirsts for. An out for the violence he can't express any other way.
It's evident by Tate's expression that he's struggling to find words. Struggling to admit, maybe because he's afraid of what'll happen. Last thing he needs is Derek crossing paths with Kavinsky, threatening to fuck him up.]
... Define hurt.
[Is it being tackled into a wall, choked or restrained?]
I - Derek, it's...
[Complicated.]
Nothing I can't handle.