I mean. Jury's still out on whether or not I like you. You're pretty awful.
[ he's just being a dick, obviously. the train cuts ahead and comes to a stop to a station that's still one station away from rosalind's place, but he'd rather walk the rest of the way in case he's being followed, or something. derek hefts the boxes higher up under his arm and gets going. ]
She's not a stray anymore. You've taken care of her. Helped her. She should be better with people. After you. She should at least try to be better. Try to be more trusting.
[ derek, for once, is aware that he's projecting on this cat pretty fucking hard - he's been working really, really hard to be more forgiving, to be better, to embrace the idea that people can be good instead of live a life of hate and self-doubt like he's been struggling with until now, and that's all because of stiles. stiles made him want to do more than just bare his teeth and amass power. his entire relationship with tate at this point is based off of wanting to help him and be there for him and do more than just cut off contact because of a single fucking fight, something which is resonating with him pretty hard, after this rosalind thing. he's trying as hard as he can to help and do the right thing and make the right choices.
he's been talking to more people. being sociable at work. that kid, noah, the dead kid - he brought him back to the den, tried to figure out how to help him. he's been keeping an eye on reggie, trying to make sure he's adjusting okay, breaking into his apartment to try and be kind instead of demanding, like he was when he broke into places back home. he's giving that peter kid a chance, he's leaving kavinsky alone, he's not scouring through the network for hunters when he's not helping stiles keep his files up to date, he's not looking over his shoulder and expecting someone to stab him with a knife rubbed with wolfsbane, he's not as afraid as he used to be, he's not as angry as he used to be - hell, even before rosalind had gone, derek had been selling her a car and asking about her life and how things have been treating her when he could have just... focused on his job and treated her like an annoyance. he's doing better. he's doing BETTER.
he's trying, at least. he really is. the cat isn't trying to be better. she should at least try. stiles saved her. showed her a safer life. promised her love. she should try.
... granted, she's a fucking cat. derek reminds himself that she's just a fucking cat. ]
I think she just ate my fish because she thought it belonged to her. You gave her fish. She saw fish. I was the boundary to get around. She probably likes me even less, now. Thinks I'm stealing her food. Which is fine? I know I sound like I care, but I don't. I don't care. I don't love her. I just said I think I love her, and I'm probably wrong about that. So. Yeah.
[ ... ]
So. Whatever. She won't ever like me. I'm a wolf. She knows that. It's never going to be better than it is now. All I do is scare her. I accept that.
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Jury's still out on whether or not I like you.
You're pretty awful.
[ he's just being a dick, obviously. the train cuts ahead and comes to a stop to a station that's still one station away from rosalind's place, but he'd rather walk the rest of the way in case he's being followed, or something. derek hefts the boxes higher up under his arm and gets going. ]
She's not a stray anymore.
You've taken care of her. Helped her.
She should be better with people. After you.
She should at least try to be better. Try to be more trusting.
[ derek, for once, is aware that he's projecting on this cat pretty fucking hard - he's been working really, really hard to be more forgiving, to be better, to embrace the idea that people can be good instead of live a life of hate and self-doubt like he's been struggling with until now, and that's all because of stiles. stiles made him want to do more than just bare his teeth and amass power. his entire relationship with tate at this point is based off of wanting to help him and be there for him and do more than just cut off contact because of a single fucking fight, something which is resonating with him pretty hard, after this rosalind thing. he's trying as hard as he can to help and do the right thing and make the right choices.
he's been talking to more people. being sociable at work. that kid, noah, the dead kid - he brought him back to the den, tried to figure out how to help him. he's been keeping an eye on reggie, trying to make sure he's adjusting okay, breaking into his apartment to try and be kind instead of demanding, like he was when he broke into places back home. he's giving that peter kid a chance, he's leaving kavinsky alone, he's not scouring through the network for hunters when he's not helping stiles keep his files up to date, he's not looking over his shoulder and expecting someone to stab him with a knife rubbed with wolfsbane, he's not as afraid as he used to be, he's not as angry as he used to be - hell, even before rosalind had gone, derek had been selling her a car and asking about her life and how things have been treating her when he could have just... focused on his job and treated her like an annoyance. he's doing better. he's doing BETTER.
he's trying, at least. he really is. the cat isn't trying to be better. she should at least try. stiles saved her. showed her a safer life. promised her love. she should try.
... granted, she's a fucking cat. derek reminds himself that she's just a fucking cat. ]
I think she just ate my fish because she thought it belonged to her.
You gave her fish. She saw fish. I was the boundary to get around. She probably likes me even less, now. Thinks I'm stealing her food.
Which is fine? I know I sound like I care, but I don't. I don't care.
I don't love her. I just said I think I love her, and I'm probably wrong about that. So.
Yeah.
[ ... ]
So.
Whatever.
She won't ever like me.
I'm a wolf. She knows that.
It's never going to be better than it is now. All I do is scare her.
I accept that.
Sucks, though.