This place is fucked up. He won't hold anything against you if he likes you. I've seen you in darker places than he has, and I'm still around, right? I'm sure it wasn't half as bad as you think it was.
You sure you don't want to talk about what actually happened?
there was this lake, full of ice and stuff. i don't know how i got there but people i knew were crawling out of it and trying to kill me. people from home. my mom's boyfriend. my mom. and violet.
peter stopped violet from pulling me under water. i almost drowned. i got mad at him because he had to hurt her to have her let go and i don't know. it was hard to deal with? trying to explain...
doesn't matter. i was just angry. he took me to his place to warm up and i kept having to explain i was fine and *how* i was fine. i healed okay, but it was close. i told him i was dead and he was a little mad with me for not fighting violet? i mean...
i can't really explain why but. it felt like i was supposed to go with her? i wanted to. that's why i was so angry. i know it's not reasonable now. this place has made me do a lot of unreasonable things. it's not fair.
[ jesus. he said he wouldn't judge tate, and he's not, but this is - scary? tate was in danger, being lured to a new death by the fucking siren song of a girlfriend who probably wasn't even real, and derek... didn't know it was happening. tate could have died and derek wouldn't have known until he came back. that's-- once again shining a light on the futility of their contract.
derek needs some time to answer this, but that's time he doesn't have, so he second guesses everything he writes as he sends each text off. ]
He can't blame you for what this place did to you. You were probably under a trance, or... something. They probably showed you Violet with the specific intent of fucking up your resistance. She wouldn't have been real. The real Violet would never want to hurt you. He can't be mad at you for... being pulled under by something specifically designed to pull you under. He's smarter than that. Better. So...
A little distance is probably all you needed. Hanging out with him in the woods will be enough to patch you guys up.
Yeah. It takes a lot of time for me to be able to tell someone I love them. If I hadn't met Stiles here the way that I did, I probably wouldn't have told him how I felt until I was on my deathbed. And even then, it'd come with an apology. I don't think there's anything wrong with something kick-starting your feelings if that's what happened here. Better to do it too early than too late. But.
I guess this is why you need to talk to him. I don't think I can solve this one for you.
[ a pause. there's a part of him still worried about what effects all this sedation might have - but it's still better than letting tate track a dealer down for some pills. ]
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he knows i'm dead now.
i think i really did freak him out
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He won't hold anything against you if he likes you.
I've seen you in darker places than he has, and I'm still around, right?
I'm sure it wasn't half as bad as you think it was.
You sure you don't want to talk about what actually happened?
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i know i fucked up a little
we can skip over acknowledging that part
ok?
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I'm in your corner. That's what trust is all about.
I trust you, so. Trust me back.
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people i knew were crawling out of it and trying to kill me. people from home.
my mom's boyfriend. my mom. and violet.
peter stopped violet from pulling me under water. i almost drowned.
i got mad at him because he had to hurt her to have her let go
and i don't know. it was hard to deal with? trying to explain...
doesn't matter. i was just angry.
he took me to his place to warm up and i kept having to explain i was fine
and *how* i was fine. i healed okay, but it was close.
i told him i was dead and he was a little mad with me
for not fighting violet? i mean...
i can't really explain why but. it felt like i was supposed to go with her?
i wanted to. that's why i was so angry. i know it's not reasonable now.
this place has made me do a lot of unreasonable things. it's not fair.
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derek needs some time to answer this, but that's time he doesn't have, so he second guesses everything he writes as he sends each text off. ]
He can't blame you for what this place did to you.
You were probably under a trance, or... something. They probably showed you Violet with the specific intent of fucking up your resistance.
She wouldn't have been real. The real Violet would never want to hurt you.
He can't be mad at you for... being pulled under by something specifically designed to pull you under. He's smarter than that. Better. So...
A little distance is probably all you needed.
Hanging out with him in the woods will be enough to patch you guys up.
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that i kind of did and
i don't know if i regret it. yet.
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i told him i loved him
and i don't know if i meant it
or if i wanted to mean it.
does that make sense?
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Yeah.
It takes a lot of time for me to be able to tell someone I love them.
If I hadn't met Stiles here the way that I did, I probably wouldn't have told him how I felt until I was on my deathbed. And even then, it'd come with an apology.
I don't think there's anything wrong with something kick-starting your feelings if that's what happened here. Better to do it too early than too late.
But.
I guess this is why you need to talk to him.
I don't think I can solve this one for you.
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i'm gonna meet with him tomorrow.
can you do me a favor though?
sometime tonight
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can you help me?
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Yeah.
I can come over now. If you want me to.
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my head's all messed up
i just need to settle it
and it helps when ur here
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Someone who makes you happier.
15 minutes max.
Wait for me.