Nobody WANTS to sign well almost nobody But we all have to do it anyway It's not like they'll just go "oh ok Derek you don't have to" especially if they switched you
Someone's gotta slip through the cracks eventually.
[ a pause. ]
I know. I'll find someone. I'll figure it out. Sorry. This isn't your problem. I shouldn't even be talking to you about this, let alone... whatever it is I'm doing now. Petulantly whining through a thin veneer of careless dismissive bullshit.
Absolutely not. I'm not going to rely on some teenage boy I don't even know. I appreciate the offer. But. I do want to punch you in the face right now. Just a little. Tiny bit.
Okay, well. First of all. You're still basically a teenager at 20. Nobody's an adult at 20. So. Point still stands. Second of all,
[ dot dot dot. ]
I don't want to get you into trouble. Two subs interacting too much is already kind of frowned upon. I'll get by. If you need any help, you can rely on me, but that's a one-way street, buddy.
Older than you, so. I'm right about everything by default.
[ actually, is that strictly true? the age thing, obviously, not the being right about everything thing. that holds up. derek focuses on figuring this out, just because it feels marginally less invasive than grilling noah on how close he is to the other subs in his life. ]
23. Born in 88, if that matters. It's 2012 for me back home. What about you?
[ assuming that's not weird to ask, given... you know. noah getting his ass ghosted up. ]
[Noah just stares at the numbers for a handful of seconds. His friends from home who are closer in age now were actually born much later than him, but he and Derek...]
Same Both years I was born in 88 too
[Actually, he might even be a few months older than Derek, chronologically-speaking, because he would be 24 if he was alive. Not that it matters. He'll never be 24.]
there's a delay, now. a significantly long pause while derek's urge to keep his life to himself and his underlying need to have people in his life duke it out in his head. derek types a few words, backspaces them, types them again in a slightly different way, backspaces those too - and in the end the desire to get to know noah a little better wins out over the shame of talking about himself. bleh, here we go. talking. feelings. gross. ]
I don't know anybody my age. Back home. There was this fire. When I was a teenager. Wiped out my family. I left town, moved to New York for a while. Opposite side of the country. I didn't really do much until I was in my twenties. Sat inside. Worked out. Didn't talk to people. Lost contact with my friends. With everyone. Then I moved back home, and I kept to myself some more. I got caught up in some shit, which meant my first social circle in over half a decade became exclusively occupied by a gaggle of idiotic teenagers I had to babysit. So.
I don't know. I guess I kind of forgot that there are people in the world who probably experienced highschool the same time I did. I've felt pretty out of step with the rest of... everyone... for about seven years now.
[The only person who knew he'd been murdered was the so-called friend who did it. Until Blue and Gansey stumbled over his body, he'd simply been a missing person. ]
[ derek wants to push a little - nobody even went looking for you? - but that's probably just projection on his part. he never looked for the missing person in his life back home, so. pushing noah to demonize the people who didn't know he died seems like a shitty thing to do. ]
Okay... Well, I'm glad you're here. But.
You need to tell me what bands you liked when you were alive. Immediately. We might've seen the same concerts. Watched the same music videos. That's kind of wild.
Oh my god? If I knew you in highschool... Actually, shit. I can't decide if I would've beaten you up or had a crush on you.
[ sum 41 and simple plan are so easy to make fun of, but part of that is because derek used to belt out i'm just a kid at the top of his lungs and get owned by his sister for it, so. he's got a pretty big artillery of insults to shoot off. he keeps them to himself, though. he's feeling weirdly nostalgic. ]
I liked a lot of the same bands. Blink, Green Day. I mean, pop punk was at a pretty big high back then. There was a very secret part of me that wanted so badly to scuff up some vans and start wearing eyeliner. But. That's not really how the basketball team did things.
[Noah's kind of delighted by these new insights, this image of a younger Derek. Totally grinning at his phone.]
You would so have had a crush
[Back when he was alive, Noah had been chatty, hyper, imaginative... Fun. He'd partied and skated. Drove the most obnoxiously tricked-out bright red Mustang with a cheerful disregard for traffic laws. He was, as he recalls it, extremely crushable, thank you.]
Of course you played sports But hey maybe you couldve been a trendsetter with the other basketball guys if you tried Told them it's game day good luck eyeliner LOL
(No I get it) I went to an all boys school in the middle of nowhere Virginia so like we had uniforms and dress code and all that but also a lot of no homo you know
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well almost nobody
But we all have to do it anyway
It's not like they'll just go "oh ok Derek you don't have to" especially if they switched you
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[ a pause. ]
I know. I'll find someone.
I'll figure it out. Sorry.
This isn't your problem. I shouldn't even be talking to you about this, let alone... whatever it is I'm doing now.
Petulantly whining through a thin veneer of careless dismissive bullshit.
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We're friends
[Anyway, he has a sneaky habit of finding out people's problems whether they tell him or not.]
Until you find someone if there's anything you need to buy or whatever I can ask Adam
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I appreciate the offer. But.
I do want to punch you in the face right now. Just a little. Tiny bit.
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Mean
Also wrong because Adam is 20 and you'd really be relying on me
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You're still basically a teenager at 20. Nobody's an adult at 20. So.
Point still stands.
Second of all,
[ dot dot dot. ]
I don't want to get you into trouble.
Two subs interacting too much is already kind of frowned upon.
I'll get by.
If you need any help, you can rely on me, but that's a one-way street, buddy.
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Also look
If I get into trouble for hanging out with other subs it probably won't be because of you
[Lucy, Jamie, Reggie... One way or another, he's dangerously close to all of them. Tate too, before the designation change.]
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[ actually, is that strictly true? the age thing, obviously, not the being right about everything thing. that holds up. derek focuses on figuring this out, just because it feels marginally less invasive than grilling noah on how close he is to the other subs in his life. ]
23. Born in 88, if that matters. It's 2012 for me back home.
What about you?
[ assuming that's not weird to ask, given... you know. noah getting his ass ghosted up. ]
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Same
Both years
I was born in 88 too
[Actually, he might even be a few months older than Derek, chronologically-speaking, because he would be 24 if he was alive. Not that it matters. He'll never be 24.]
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[ that's - huh, that's kind of...
there's a delay, now. a significantly long pause while derek's urge to keep his life to himself and his underlying need to have people in his life duke it out in his head. derek types a few words, backspaces them, types them again in a slightly different way, backspaces those too - and in the end the desire to get to know noah a little better wins out over the shame of talking about himself. bleh, here we go. talking. feelings. gross. ]
I don't know anybody my age. Back home.
There was this fire. When I was a teenager. Wiped out my family.
I left town, moved to New York for a while. Opposite side of the country.
I didn't really do much until I was in my twenties. Sat inside. Worked out. Didn't talk to people. Lost contact with my friends. With everyone.
Then I moved back home, and I kept to myself some more. I got caught up in some shit, which meant my first social circle in over half a decade became exclusively occupied by a gaggle of idiotic teenagers I had to babysit. So.
I don't know. I guess I kind of forgot that there are people in the world who probably experienced highschool the same time I did.
I've felt pretty out of step with the rest of... everyone... for about seven years now.
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That's awful
Seven years is how long I've been dead at home
I think
It's hard to keep track
Everyone I know I met after
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No friends who missed you after you died or - anything like that?
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Not everyone can see me
[The only person who knew he'd been murdered was the so-called friend who did it. Until Blue and Gansey stumbled over his body, he'd simply been a missing person. ]
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Okay...
Well, I'm glad you're here. But.
You need to tell me what bands you liked when you were alive. Immediately.
We might've seen the same concerts. Watched the same music videos.
That's kind of wild.
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Give me a second
[This is a subject he doesn't mind at all. The typing bubble bounces for a while as he puts together a short list.]
Ok so:
blink-182
Alkaline Trio
Sum 41
Green Day
Simple Plan
NOFX
Brand New
...and like a bunch of others too but I listened to those the most
Who did you like?
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Actually, shit. I can't decide if I would've beaten you up or had a crush on you.
[ sum 41 and simple plan are so easy to make fun of, but part of that is because derek used to belt out i'm just a kid at the top of his lungs and get owned by his sister for it, so. he's got a pretty big artillery of insults to shoot off. he keeps them to himself, though. he's feeling weirdly nostalgic. ]
I liked a lot of the same bands. Blink, Green Day.
I mean, pop punk was at a pretty big high back then. There was a very secret part of me that wanted so badly to scuff up some vans and start wearing eyeliner. But.
That's not really how the basketball team did things.
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You would so have had a crush
[Back when he was alive, Noah had been chatty, hyper, imaginative... Fun. He'd partied and skated. Drove the most obnoxiously tricked-out bright red Mustang with a cheerful disregard for traffic laws. He was, as he recalls it, extremely crushable, thank you.]
Of course you played sports
But hey maybe you couldve been a trendsetter with the other basketball guys if you tried
Told them it's game day good luck eyeliner LOL
(No I get it)
I went to an all boys school in the middle of nowhere Virginia so
like we had uniforms and dress code and all that but also a lot of no homo
you know