[ he likes like 2 other people but he's not going to say that. ]
Don't like the therapist I'm being forced to see, at least. Forced to see so that I can better regulate my behaviour in accordance to a society I don't want to be a part of. I just sit there, too. Staring. Silently. Trying to make them uncomfortable. Works pretty well.
[And he likes you too, Derek. Enough that maybe he wants to emulate you. Do what you do, take your angle on a situation and mimic it. At the very least, he's just curious about Derek's responses and how to cater to them here. They've been talking about a lot more lately than he thought they would.]
I didn't trust my therapist back home, not that much here it's even worse. what we say can really be used against us but I think I miss having the ability to talk to sort out my head. just a little
[ derek can understand that. the fear, the lack of trust. he's felt that for long enough now that he can't remember what life was like when he didn't feel like people could fuck him over the second they find a reason to do so. if he can alleviate that in tate, save him from some of the things derek goes through, then - he wants to do that. ]
Like I said - I'm here, if you need to talk. I can't do anything other than talk. Not a therapist. Barely capable of using more than one syllable at a time. But I don't want you to feel like you're alone while you're here.
[ a pause. derek anxiously taps his nails on the side of his phone before he continues. ]
You need to find your people. Your pack. I can be a part of that.
[That can apply to a few things; having someone to talk to, and to feel out how deep the well of trust goes. Someone else around to help him find 'his pack'. Kind of cringe in phrasing, but it definitely sounds like some jock wolf pack deal. And with what he's learned about Derek recently? It fits, for a basketball captain. Gross, though. Still gross.]
I've met some terrible people in my life. There's a very high bar you have to reach before I'll think any less of you.
[ that's not strictly true, he judges people very easily. but. from what he knows about tate, he figures his therapy sessions are just about how much he hates his mom and how he definitely definitely has never ever had any gay thoughts in his life, so like. derek's not exactly worried about what tate might need to get off his chest. ]
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but that's a no, then?
I don't know what to do during my sessions
I just sit there
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I don't like anyone else.
[ he likes like 2 other people but he's not going to say that. ]
Don't like the therapist I'm being forced to see, at least. Forced to see so that I can better regulate my behaviour in accordance to a society I don't want to be a part of.
I just sit there, too.
Staring. Silently. Trying to make them uncomfortable.
Works pretty well.
Why do you ask?
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[And he likes you too, Derek. Enough that maybe he wants to emulate you. Do what you do, take your angle on a situation and mimic it. At the very least, he's just curious about Derek's responses and how to cater to them here. They've been talking about a lot more lately than he thought they would.]
I didn't trust my therapist back home, not that much
here it's even worse. what we say can really be used against us
but I think I miss having the ability to talk
to sort out my head. just a little
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Like I said - I'm here, if you need to talk.
I can't do anything other than talk. Not a therapist. Barely capable of using more than one syllable at a time.
But I don't want you to feel like you're alone while you're here.
[ a pause. derek anxiously taps his nails on the side of his phone before he continues. ]
You need to find your people. Your pack.
I can be a part of that.
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[That can apply to a few things; having someone to talk to, and to feel out how deep the well of trust goes. Someone else around to help him find 'his pack'. Kind of cringe in phrasing, but it definitely sounds like some jock wolf pack deal. And with what he's learned about Derek recently? It fits, for a basketball captain. Gross, though. Still gross.]
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Good.
Do you want to talk... now?
About real things, I mean. Things you'd talk about in therapy.
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I've met some terrible people in my life.
There's a very high bar you have to reach before I'll think any less of you.
[ that's not strictly true, he judges people very easily. but. from what he knows about tate, he figures his therapy sessions are just about how much he hates his mom and how he definitely definitely has never ever had any gay thoughts in his life, so like. derek's not exactly worried about what tate might need to get off his chest. ]
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not like this. but in person.
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[ ... ]
During the day, though.
Been caught by the guards wandering around at night more than once already.
Don't want to get you into trouble.
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tho honestly, all we have to say is we're shacking up
doubt they'd give a shit about getting some fresh air, then
but okay. during the day.
after lunch tomorrow?
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Okay.
Not like I'll be busy.
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