[Tate murmurs in reply, feeling like it's the right thing to say. It's comforting, being this close and feeling like should anything happen... he's got an angry, naked wolf-man to take care of him? Tate sleeps the deepest when he's in the arms of someone else, feeling like the world's something less scary to exist in, and so his head gets heavy fast and his breathing is quick to even out. He sighs just one before he drifts off, fingers resting over Derek's.]
The sleeping bag is starting to feel cramped and they hadn't accounted for bugs - they're lucky enough to have been left alone by mosquitoes, and contrary to popular belief, Derek doesn't have any fleas to worry about, but there are cicadas and crickets that sound unbearably loud to Derek, even if they're dead silent to the rest of the world. They wake him up in an hour or two, and Derek's disoriented and a little unaware of where he is, but Tate's still curled against his chest and breathing peacefully, and it's enough to keep him stable until the world pieces itself together.
He sighs, rubbing his ear against the arm he's using as a pillow, willing his hearing to dull itself down. Everything fades, and Derek relaxes, closing his eyes.
But he can't get back to sleep. Not when he's this hard.
Derek tries. A good ten, maybe fifteen minutes pass, and Derek tries so hard to pass out again, but sleep refuses to take him; Tate's sweats have dipped down his hips, and Derek's cock is laying thick against his ass, pressed up between his bare back and his own stomach. Every shift Tate makes in his sleep rolls Derek's foreskin back or spreads precum down his spine, and Derek - tries to be good. He tries.
Carefully, quietly, after a long, guilty moment of consideration, Derek reaches his arm back from around Tate, sets it over his hip and just - pauses. He knows Tate's asleep, but... ]
[That's all Derek gets in response - a sleepy murmur from a still rather out of it kid, who's curled up on his side and breathing in deep. He's being fished out of REM and sits warily in the upper echelons of drowsy meets sleepy - eyelids fluttering but his whole attention not stirring yet. He only feels the warmth of being close to someone, the heat from the sleeping bag radiating around them and keeping a faint sheen of sweat over his temples. It was good to take his shirt off and it'd feel better to kick his sweats off, feeling only a tangle of fabric around his thighs that he puts his hand to as if to nudge away. Only he doesn't, because his hand snags in the fabric and stays there, and his head lolls down against the wood.
He doesn't notice the weight of Derek's cock against his back, doesn't know the extent to which he's suffering his hard on. He just was having a nice dream that's already been forgotten, pushed out of his head the second the world started coming back into focus. With the crink in his neck and the hard floor beneath them. He doesn't want to wake up, going back to sleep's so easy.
[ Fresh flareups of guilt light up in Derek pretty fucking often, when he's with Tate. He gets another one here - Tate sounds sleepy and peaceful and Derek wants nothing more than to soothe him back to bed, feeling like a piece of shit for disturbing him. He leaves his lips on the bridge of Tate's shoulder, lightly sucking, just enough to turn his skin pink, the feeling a gentle, barely there hum. A silent, affectionate apology for waking him up, and - maybe, on some level, an unspoken question, that Tate might be too tired to make sense of. A gauge of interest, to see if he'd be... okay, with them going again, even though Derek knows that they shouldn't.
Cautiously, though, Derek inches Tate's sweats down a little more, moving his waistband to just above his knees. Barely, barely moving, he brings his hand back to the base of his cock, angling it down, dragging it down Tate's ass and - as he shifts an inch or two further into the sleeping bag - setting it behind his thigh. Derek swallows, kissing Tate's back, reaching his hand back up to settle on Tate's stomach. Every touch, every movement, it's all barely there, so as not to disturb Tate too deeply out of sleep, and when he talks, the length of his dick urging against the back of Tate's leg, he's barely speaking at a whisper. ]
[Tate thinks for a blissful second that he's going to be able to just keep his eyes shut and fall back asleep. Derek's not rustling around and his voice is low and warm, rumbling over his shoulder beneath the soft suckle of his lips. Tate's lulled by that, breathing in a shuddering, slow breath before exhaling it in another sigh. He feels Derek drag down his sweats and doesn't care, doesn't do more than nuzzle in against his own arm until he's sensing Derek ask more questions.
His eyelids flutter again, dark eyes wearily opening only to shut tight once more. His face screws up in a tired manner and it's still dark out - the middle of the night, easy enough to distinguish - and he doesn't know what Derek wants and frankly doesn't care. He nods, murmuring a soft 'yeah' before flexing his leg a bit and pushing back against Derek. He's losing his grasp on sleep but for a few blissful seconds more, he can lose his focus on reality and close his eyes.]
[ Derek's supposed to be better than this. Above all this mindless, animal lust the city beats through his veins, above the... the primal parts of him that lack the civility he's supposed to have. Thinking with his dick has only ever gotten him into trouble, and - that's not what this is supposed to even be. This arrangement was just supposed to help Tate meet his quota, and-- no matter how he tries to argue it, no matter what justification he tries to make to himself, he's waking him up in the middle of the night because he wants to be taken care of again. He wants more of Tate, before daybreak takes him away. Back to somebody else. Kavinsky. Peter. The memory of Violet. Whoever.
Someone who isn't him.
He gives Derek the go ahead and Derek makes the tiniest crack of a sound from the back of his throat, his breath catching. He swallows and closes his eyes tight, letting Tate press up against him with only the smallest, shallow rut of his hips to meet him. He kisses along the bumps of Tate's spine as he moves his hand back down between them, adjusting himself in the warmth to carefully, carefully press his dick between the tight squeeze of Tate's thighs.
Swallowing, he pushes forward, resting his forehead against Tate's back, his entire body heating up and almost vibrating with excitement. He's trying so, so hard to be quiet, or - to at least not move as much as he could, if he allowed himself to take everything he wanted. He keeps his thrusts slow and barely there, covering Tate's leg with his arm to hold his thighs together with as small of an amount of force as he can manage, and he barely gets the first inch of his cock between the warm hold of his body every time he presses in. In, out. In, out. So, so fucking slow, like Tate will break if he uses him too hard.
He's less quiet, as he exhales hot and shaky down Tate's shoulderblade. ]
[Some other time, Tate might've been able to lull himself through this. Maybe if they were curled up on an actual fucking bed, it'd be easier not to feel every movement for the disturbance it is. Tate keeps his eyes closed but he's too awake now, fighting the sluggishness that sits in his veins to keep his dark eyes open and staring off into the night as he feels Derek move and shift behind him. He's kissing his skin and leaving goosebumps in the wake of his lips and Tate feels the subtle pressure against his legs, which results in a tensing all his own when he recognizes Derek's cock rutting against him.
One little sigh, almost exasperated, before Tate's resigned to being awake. It's not that he's annoyed or anything - he's just tired. But that ebbs out of him when he grazes his hand down, feeling between his legs to touch the head of Derek's cock when it peeks through between the meat of his thighs. He flexes them tighter together, groaning just a little when he pushes his hips back to meet Derek.
He's done this with Peter - the other way around, though. He knows what it's like to fuck a tense, tight pair of thighs and how it can almost feel like the real thing. How in many ways its even better, because for how hard he choked on Derek's cock when it was in his mouth - Tate's not sure he'd fair all that much better with it in his ass, with little prep and the fucking woods all around them. This is much better, although he starts kicking his legs a bit to try and worm himself out of his sweats all together.]
You can go harder. Fuck me harder.
[Still an element of sleepiness to how he says that, but his attention's there - he looks back over his shoulder at Derek, dark eyes glinting with a sheen of moonlight. He laughs, light and airy, burying his face down against his bent arm before snorting soon after that.]
You're pretty horny for a guy who said he'd never fuck me.
[ Again, it's easy for Derek to feel ashamed of himself around Tate. The exasperated sigh hits him a little hard, and for a second, Derek stops moving, afraid of having gone too far, but - but he can't have. Tate palms the head of his cock and makes Derek hiss in air through his teeth, bucking his hips forward without meaning to and keening his forehead against Tate's back, burying his nose against him. He swears again, under his breath, feeling his legs tense, and Tate gives him more, making himself tighter, moving, fucking groaning. The words fuck me harder go straight to his cock and Derek bares his teeth out of sight, feeling precum leak between them and stain the inside of Tate's sleeping bag.
He looks up, when Tate looks back at him, only his eyes and the top of his nose visible from behind the curve of Tate's shoulder. He's making fun of Derek, and Derek... can't deny him, with the way his dick's almost red with need, the way his body feels hotter than it's ever felt. He audibly swallows and takes the joke kind of seriously, looking away from Tate, gently scraping his teeth over his skin to make him shiver before answering. ]
I... was trying to be good.
[ Trying to be good for Tate. Give him what he needs, rather than what he wants. Trying to be better than Kate was to him. Tate's convinced him that this is better, and that this is what he needs, and if that ever changes - they'll have to stop doing this.
He doesn't fuck Tate any harder, though, not yet. He buries his cock between Tate's thighs roughly half way deep, then moves his own hand to rest just an inch above Tate's dick. He's not sure if he wants to come again - he's not even sure how to ask - but he's giving Tate the suggestion of an offer to help, if he wants to take it. Quietly, he speaks up again. ]
[He was trying to be good? Tate would laugh but the words sit with such a strong anchor of certainty that he doesn't, he just blinks and looks at him with a calm sense of affection before turning back to stare forward when Derek starts to thrust. He reaches out to brace against the floor of the platform, fingers splayed to give himself a little bit of leverage to rock back. He doesn't know how tight to hold his thighs, but he figures Derek'll make it tighter if he wants - it doesn't even feel silly, Tate just softly groans as the motions start to make him horny too.
Made better, of course, by Derek's hand hovering over his dick. Tate's quick to swat at it, to pull it down over him to wrap around his cock. He squeezes his own fingers around Derek's to emphasize the needy point, his own cock half-hard but swelling the second he feels Derek's palm. He wants him to jerk him off, to keep this going - until he's told to turn over. And he pauses, looking back at Derek with a soft glance.
He pulls his hips away and thighs apart from one another, rolling over softly with a crinkling noise of the sleeping back and one last errant kick to ensure he's naked beneath it's cover. He faces Derek with a bit of a red face, blond curls damp to his forehead but his hands reaching out to touch Derek in an intimate way for the first time. He nods his head and shifts closer, thighs back together.]
[ Tate is more eager than Derek thought he would be. He doesn't guide Derek's hand down so much as he directs him to do as he's told, and Derek dutifully curls his fingers around his cock, exhaling another shaky, anticipatory breath. Touching Tate so directly for the first time is... a lot, for Derek, who still hasn't really adjusted to having sex as often as this city allows, despite having fucked around so much when he first arrived. Between that, and learning how to treat sex as a duty he has to fulfil as an Alpha, and adjusting to the fact that he's fooling around with Tate, of all people, it's...
It's still intimidating, on some level. He jerks Tate off in light, exploratory touches, his own cock made harder by the feeling of Tate filling his hand. He doesn't make a sound when Tate pulls back and obliges him by turning over, even though he feels kind of empty in those few seconds where they're apart, and when they're facing each other and Tate starts giving him shit, Derek just. Pulls a face. ]
Talking too much.
[ But this is what he wanted - eye contact, intimacy, a physical version of the closeness he should have tried harder to forge with his pack back home. Derek moves his hand to Tate's ass and pulls him closer, biting back the moan that threatens to rock out of him when the movement presses Tate's thighs back around him. He closes his eyes, gives himself time to adjust, then opens them again.
Tate's nose is right in front of his. In the dim light of the moon, Derek can see how long his lashes are, and vaguely, he can see that Tate's irises aren't black, but a very dark brown. He can feel Tate's breath against his lips, he can feel his cock hard against his stomach. He feels connected, and he slowly, slowly starts to fuck the tight gap of Tate's thighs, his hand squeezing Tate's ass like he's holding on for balance. He swallows, and he lets go, and he rests his arm up Tate's back, actually - embracing him. ]
Look at me. Don't... close your eyes.
[ He said it before, but - he wants to see Tate. Just like this. ]
[Tate toys back, before he shuts himself up by biting his lip when Derek tugs him close. He's right up in his face, staring into his eyes and feeling the heat bounce back off his chest. His cock is brushing against Derek's abdomen while Derek's is nudging back between his legs and Tate's so keenly aware of every little motion they make. It feels like Derek's actually fucking him when he starts moving between his thighs again, for how close they are and how Tate really has nowhere else to look but directly into Derek's hazel eyes.
He holds his palm up against Derek's bicep, kneading his fingertips into it before sliding it under to hold on to his ribs instead. He finds a way of moving that helps go with what Derek's doing, gaze dropping only when he shifts his hips or feels like he wants to see how he's rocking but getting nothing but a spell of darkness and their bodies flush together. He's red in the face when he stares back into Derek's eyes, gingerly tipping forward his head to kiss him again - almost afraid to, but not sure what else suits the moment.]
[ This is the second kiss they've shared, and it's the second that Tate's initiated. It's almost like Derek waits for permission whenever they do this; Tate breaks the seal, chaste and cautious, and Derek responds by leaning into him hard and fast and turning everything up to eleven. He exhales like he's relieved that Tate took the first step, catching his tongue against Tate's and whining a rough, throaty noise against his lips, and his hand glides down Tate's back, resting on his tailbone. ]
Fuck.
[ He's covering the inside of Tate's legs with precum, making him slick and warm and almost real. Derek keeps alternating between holding Tate still and letting him move, urging him to buck his hips against his own and help him, but through it all, he holds eye contact. He doesn't go in for a third kiss, but he leaves his lips apart so he can breathe Tate's breath, feel him, see the perfect brown of his eyes. It's - intense, like this. Real. ]
I... I wanna make you come again.
[ His hand moves lower, and lower still, until he's resting his middle finger against Tate's hole. He pitches his eyebrows up, like they're asking the question, asking for permission, rather than him. ]
[He's never sure if the kisses should last, if they're wanted or just given to him because Derek would seemingly give him anything he asks for at this point. He thinks there's a hunger in there he can feel, that he can taste, so he kisses Derek with a warm passion until their lips break and he's back to feeling breathless in his alternating movements to make Derek, in turn, feel good too.
The moment is so absurdly intimate with how Tate stares into Derek's eyes, looking into the depths of his pupils and almost seeing something there beyond it all. His eyes briefly go out of focus before he blinks a few times in quick succession, Derek's finger pressing between the cheeks of his ass and making his movements suddenly stutter, clumsy and out of sync.
He nods his head, breath shallow and his features pinching because he doesn't know how to move properly for this. He wants to part his legs to encourage Derek's finger but struggles instead to keep them closed, for the sake of the cock bobbing between his thighs. He shifts forward to tuck his head in against Derek's chest, hoping he'll take the hint and lead how he wants to lead - because Tate's hand is skimming down between them to rub his cock, which is now hard from brushing against his abs.]
[ Tate gives him permission and Derek feels - taller. He presses more of his weight against Tate, not grinding into him fast, but grinding into him deep. Every time he rolls his body forward he drags the hard slab of his stomach muscles against Tate's cock, feeling him hard against his abs, and every time Tate breathes in, Derek can feel it ripple through his own chest.
A second later, though, he stops. He pulls back from between Tate's thighs, slow and reluctant, and - he moves. He inches higher, moving until his cock is pressed flush to Tate's, wordlessly urging him to spread his legs a little wider apart, instead, to give Derek better access to his hole. Derek swallows, taking his hand back and wiping his fingers through the mess of precum he left on Tate's thigh, getting the tips of them wet. ]
Hand-- hand. Put your hand--
[ -- on him. On them. Derek grinds his cock against Tate's to make a point, dropping his neck forward so he can press a kiss to the top of Tate's hair. He closes his eyes, feeling his heart beat a little faster. ]
[Tate feels that flare of vulnerability come crawling back up from his gut - putting a new flush to his face as he groans almost wantonly. His legs are apart and he's so conscious of it, feeling Derek hover close to him and rubs his fingers in against him in a way that makes him squirm. He spreads his knees wider yet, fingers feeling down between them to do as instructed and envelop their cocks in his palm and rub over the both of them with swirling strokes of his hand.
All the while wondering what's coming next, feeling like a brick is weighing him down beneath his ribs. He tucks his chin in against his chest, looking at Derek before nuzzling up against his neck when he ducks close. He kisses his throat, rubbing his cheek against his jaw like a cat - feeling the prickle of stubble and exhaling hotly against the shell of his ear.]
I don't think- I can't...
[Always a wonder, trying to phrase "take your cock" in any more elegant of a way than that.]
[ Derek never really feels like he deserves intimacy. It's a constant struggle with Stiles, though he does his best not to show it; he's afraid of letting him down or ruining him the way he did with Paige, or the way Kate did to him. With Tate, it's different, but there's that same self-defeating gravity crushing him from the inside when things get too far - who's to say he won't let him burn, one day, like the rest of his pack? Who's to say he won't cradle Tate's dead body, like he one day will Erica's? Why does he think he's earned the right to be this close to somebody he cares about? Why does he think he's allowed to care about them in the first place?
But it's - intoxicating. It's fulfilling, and every time, try as he might to pull himself back and stay in isolation, Derek just wants more. Tate strokes the two of them together and Derek feels his body go tense. He leans with restrained subtlety into every touch Tate gives him, moving into Tate's breath, rolling his hips to fuck up into his hand. He doesn't deserve this, but - it's all he wants? A mess of hands and more locked away in the overwhelming heat of a single sleeping bag with somebody he thinks the world of, while the rest of the world lives in the darkness and the cold around them. ]
... Yeah.
[ Just his fingers. Derek swallows, holding his head back to give Tate more access to his throat, and he moves his hand back from Tate's thighs, back up to his hole again. Precum might not be lube enough for Tate to open up for him, but - it's enough of a start. He presses one finger to his muscle, and then another. Not penetrating, but - preparing to. ]
[Tate nods his head a few times, staring at Derek and feeling his breath leave him in shallow pants when he works his hand down around their cocks. He can feel Derek rut his cock against his, and it wrenches from him a low groan that's outdone by the one that passes through his lips when Derek probes at his hole with his fingertips. Tate lolls his head back but pushes toward Derek's hand, muscle flexing with the want to be filled by him. Thoughts about pleading for his cock anyway fill his head but he fights them off, knowing this is far more than enough to do.
He drags his tongue down Derek's neck, sucking and beginning to bite red spots into purple as he feels precum run down the sides of their cocks and touch over his fingers. He squeezes his grip a bit tighter, groaning against Derek's throat as his teeth skip over it and his other hand reaches for Derek, just to grip on to him. To pull him closer, chasing the feeling of wanting to smother under his weight.]
[ Derek makes a noise, a quiet ah of appreciation, when Tate's teeth catch on his throat. He's never subtle when he likes something someone does to him, but this is a response. His toes curl and his cock flexes harder in Tate's hand, and he fucks into him in one hard, deep thrust, uncontrolled and clumsy enough to slip out of Tate's grip when he pulls back. Tate bites harder and Derek's entire body shivers, and he stretches his throat back, wanting this. Wanting to be marked. Claimed, the way he's spent so long trying to claim Tate.
Tate tells him he trusts him and Derek ruts into him again, a needy push of his dick that slips in the combined lubrication of their precum. He swallows, adam's apple bobbing against Tate's lips. The arm he has draped around Tate's waist pulls him into Derek, and they physically can't get any closer than this. Derek wants Tate to keep kissing him, keep biting him, to make the marks worse, more visible, so that he'll be able to see them in the morning light before they heal over. He doesn't know how to ask, he just - bares his throat and lowly growls from the back of it when it feels like Tate's going to stop.
Gradually, he pushes his middle finger against Tate's hole. He's tight and he doesn't yield easily, and Derek is overly, overly careful, making this as smooth and as easy as it can be. Derek swallows, holds his breath, and eases the very tip of his finger into Tate, exhaling as he sinks into the first knuckle. ]
[Tate slips closer, fingers grazing at Derek's skin and wrapping around him rather than cradle their cocks together any longer because the friction of their bodies pressed tight takes over far better than his hand ever could. He grinds against him, breathing sharp and then shallow against his neck - feeling the rumble of a growl in Derek's throat and moaning from that alone. Shouldn't feel this good to feel like he's fucking an animal, and yet here he is. Craving it.
He can feel Derek's finger begin to apply pressure and he tries - he really does - to relax for him. It's still something new to adjust to, especially like this, and he bites down on Derek's neck as if to show he's alright with it as he squirms and then holds steady. He feels it slowly sink in to him with a wet groan against Derek's neck, teeth sitting in the ridges they've left on his skin as he clamps down around Derek's finger and almost whimpers. Fuck, fuck, fuck.]
[ Fuck, the bite. Derek makes these wanton, breathy sounds, squeezing his arm around Tate's waist hard enough to hurt and leaning into it, almost crying out from how much he adores the feeling of teeth against his throat. The longer this goes on, the less he fucks Tate like he's trying to get them both off, and more because the friction between them and the scent of his precum and the heat of his body are the only things Derek can even fucking think about. He ruts against Tate more and more like he's made of instinct and need more than thoughts and civility, and every hard, labored thrust comes with undignified sounds and moans and gasps rolling from the back of Derek's throat. He's not holding back. Doesn't even pretend to try.
Tate's grips onto Derek's finger as he pulls it back out of him, tight enough that it's like he's refusing to let go. Derek shivers, bucking his hips up, rustling the sleeping bag around him. He presses two fingers to Tate's hole, this time, wanting to see how much he'll stretch for him. He presses almost urgently against Tate until he yields and he takes him, dragging his fingers down to their second knuckles, insatiably needy and barely prepped. Fuck, fuck, he's so tight. ]
Fuck, Tate. [ He finds a rhythm, slower and smoother than each grind of his cock over Tate's. It takes a monumental effort to keep it that way. ] Fuck, you're so-- fuck, I bet you feel amazing. You'd make me come so fucking fast, you'd make me come harder than I've ever...
[ He swallows, shaking his head, cutting himself off. Tate's hole is intense, but Derek isn't going to push things too far. They need... time, they need a bed, they need proper, solid prep. He can't be greedy. ]
[If he's already left a deep mark on Derek's neck already, he leaves a deeper one still when he feels his fingers press into him. Tate nearly breaks the skin for how hard he bites, relenting only to loll back his head with a cry as Derek's fingers stretch him open, sliding deep enough into him that his leg kicks all on its own. He wants nothing more than to feel more, to make the motion constant and all consuming, because he's on the fast track to being overwhelmed and losing it.
Each slide of their bodies together provides the friction that leaks pre from his cock, making him ache to keep on rutting until he can come. But Derek's fingers keep him from pushing things, they keep him dazed almost with how much he enjoys it. He's tight, clenching tighter still around two fingers - partially in surprise and then just partially due to the fact he's still not used to this. His body never seems to adapt, to stretch and stay that way. He always reverts.]
Ff... Fuck.
[He breathes out hard through his nose, clutching to Derek and starting to plead under his breath each time they move. Pleading for more, trying to push against Derek's fingers while also staying in line for the way he's being rutted against in those desperately slow grinds. His cock twitches, aching to come and he knows with a soft whimper it's not going to take more than a few more rolls of Derek's hips or a stroke of his fingertips to make him seize. He just fights it off as best he can, features screwed together and his teeth showing in a pleasured grimace.]
[ Derek isn't going to last. It's a miracle, actually, that he's lasted as long as he has already. Derek sinks his fingers further into Tate, seeking out his prostate, curling his knuckles back when he finds it. He doesn't just graze against it, soft and tantalizing and teasing like he's trying to enhance things - he presses, trying to overload Tate with sensitivity, trying to make him see stars.
But - Derek still comes first. It doesn't happen suddenly. He's grinding against Tate so slowly and so easily that his climax builds in him agonizingly, agonizingly gradually, almost painful in how much time it takes to reach its peak. He's sweating and he's rigid and his mouth is dropped open in a silent moan, looking at Tate with half-lidded, unfocused eyes, clouded over by lust. He's barely fucking into Tate at all, when he gets there - just lightly frotting the head of his cock over Tate's, getting himself off through nerves over friction.
He comes almost as hard as he did the first time. Maybe harder, it's difficult to say. His hips bunch forward and he shoots between them, covering himself and Tate with the heavy shots of his load, his voice cracking and exhausted when he exhales out a fractured grunt of release. Derek's fingers shake a little and press more urgently into Tate, willing him along, trying to get him off at the same time. Trying to experience this together. ]
[Derek's fingers slide into him and Tate's already groaning from the feeling of being stretched around them, the subtle spark of pain that burns with each movement but he's not prepared for the jolt that courses through him when Derek presses into his prostate and makes him blank out. He croons a soft noise, halting in every little movement he makes for a few seconds before forcing himself to continue - barely managing that when Derek grinds against him so steadily.
He's breathing shallow, clutching to Derek with a grip that's too-tight in an unaware way, teeth set together so hard they start to hurt. Derek's cum hits him on the chest and Tate knows he's already at the cusp of coming, hovering right on the edge with a heady noise and staggering breath. One wrong move and he could lose it, the most precarious of positions - up until Derek's fingers drive into him and the warmth washes through him with a sudden, jagged edged release timed just seconds after Derek's.
Tate lets out a wrecked noise, head lolling heavily to the side as the quakes of it ring through him. He clenches tight to Derek's fingers, the feeling of them probing in him milking out an extra shot of cum that slides down his cock after the rest splatters between their bodies, the musky scent of sex and sweat hard to miss when he shifts and fails at lifting his head back up.]
[ It takes Derek-- a while, to remember where he is. To come down from the ridiculous fucking animalistic high of his orgasm and stop his body from trembling. Tate whispers I can't right against his ear and Derek panics, in that way where his body reacts before his head does; he feels a jolt of worry before he realizes that voice belongs to Tate and reasons out what he means. That he's exhausted, that he's wrecked. The same as Derek.
The lack of sleep he's had tonight fucking gets to him. Derek steadily, steadily withdraws himself from Tate's ass, feeling a little alone when he loses the warm heat of him. His chest aches like he's been breathing too hard for his lungs to keep up with. He doesn't disentangle himself from Tate, even though he should - he just drops his arm around his side, heavy and dead. ]
Fuck.
[ It comes out more like fhck, because Derek's dropped his head down, his lip pulled back by the bicep he's using as a pillow and slurring because of it. Derek swallows, looking at Tate with a smile that's more dopey and drained than anything else. Derek looks almost blissful. That was... that was really, really fucking good. He feels fucked out. Drained. Happy. ]
[Tate still feels himself twitching, stomach flexing tight as the feeling gently ebbs away. He's emptier without Derek's fingers, feeling the slickness on his chest but not managing the effort to reach for that tragically filthy t-shirt of Derek's to clean up. He just lays there, just as heavy and carved of stone, breathing hard before pressing his forehead closer to Derek. He rests it against him, eyes closed, deciding just to lay there and worry later.
If he were more with it, he'd chide Derek for waking him up only to use him and flop back asleep. But Tate's tired too, more so now than ever, and he makes a still-hoarse sounding noise of acknowledgment that's almost a fond agreement. He's gonna pass out too, he thinks. But for a few moments of silence, Tate just lets his eyelids feel heavy and knows that he's safe? This feeling, he can trust it.]
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[Tate murmurs in reply, feeling like it's the right thing to say. It's comforting, being this close and feeling like should anything happen... he's got an angry, naked wolf-man to take care of him? Tate sleeps the deepest when he's in the arms of someone else, feeling like the world's something less scary to exist in, and so his head gets heavy fast and his breathing is quick to even out. He sighs just one before he drifts off, fingers resting over Derek's.]
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The sleeping bag is starting to feel cramped and they hadn't accounted for bugs - they're lucky enough to have been left alone by mosquitoes, and contrary to popular belief, Derek doesn't have any fleas to worry about, but there are cicadas and crickets that sound unbearably loud to Derek, even if they're dead silent to the rest of the world. They wake him up in an hour or two, and Derek's disoriented and a little unaware of where he is, but Tate's still curled against his chest and breathing peacefully, and it's enough to keep him stable until the world pieces itself together.
He sighs, rubbing his ear against the arm he's using as a pillow, willing his hearing to dull itself down. Everything fades, and Derek relaxes, closing his eyes.
But he can't get back to sleep. Not when he's this hard.
Derek tries. A good ten, maybe fifteen minutes pass, and Derek tries so hard to pass out again, but sleep refuses to take him; Tate's sweats have dipped down his hips, and Derek's cock is laying thick against his ass, pressed up between his bare back and his own stomach. Every shift Tate makes in his sleep rolls Derek's foreskin back or spreads precum down his spine, and Derek - tries to be good. He tries.
Carefully, quietly, after a long, guilty moment of consideration, Derek reaches his arm back from around Tate, sets it over his hip and just - pauses. He knows Tate's asleep, but... ]
... Are you awake?
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[That's all Derek gets in response - a sleepy murmur from a still rather out of it kid, who's curled up on his side and breathing in deep. He's being fished out of REM and sits warily in the upper echelons of drowsy meets sleepy - eyelids fluttering but his whole attention not stirring yet. He only feels the warmth of being close to someone, the heat from the sleeping bag radiating around them and keeping a faint sheen of sweat over his temples. It was good to take his shirt off and it'd feel better to kick his sweats off, feeling only a tangle of fabric around his thighs that he puts his hand to as if to nudge away. Only he doesn't, because his hand snags in the fabric and stays there, and his head lolls down against the wood.
He doesn't notice the weight of Derek's cock against his back, doesn't know the extent to which he's suffering his hard on. He just was having a nice dream that's already been forgotten, pushed out of his head the second the world started coming back into focus. With the crink in his neck and the hard floor beneath them. He doesn't want to wake up, going back to sleep's so easy.
But fuck. Is Derek talking? The hell?]
What?
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Cautiously, though, Derek inches Tate's sweats down a little more, moving his waistband to just above his knees. Barely, barely moving, he brings his hand back to the base of his cock, angling it down, dragging it down Tate's ass and - as he shifts an inch or two further into the sleeping bag - setting it behind his thigh. Derek swallows, kissing Tate's back, reaching his hand back up to settle on Tate's stomach. Every touch, every movement, it's all barely there, so as not to disturb Tate too deeply out of sleep, and when he talks, the length of his dick urging against the back of Tate's leg, he's barely speaking at a whisper. ]
Can... can I...?
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His eyelids flutter again, dark eyes wearily opening only to shut tight once more. His face screws up in a tired manner and it's still dark out - the middle of the night, easy enough to distinguish - and he doesn't know what Derek wants and frankly doesn't care. He nods, murmuring a soft 'yeah' before flexing his leg a bit and pushing back against Derek. He's losing his grasp on sleep but for a few blissful seconds more, he can lose his focus on reality and close his eyes.]
Sure.
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Someone who isn't him.
He gives Derek the go ahead and Derek makes the tiniest crack of a sound from the back of his throat, his breath catching. He swallows and closes his eyes tight, letting Tate press up against him with only the smallest, shallow rut of his hips to meet him. He kisses along the bumps of Tate's spine as he moves his hand back down between them, adjusting himself in the warmth to carefully, carefully press his dick between the tight squeeze of Tate's thighs.
Swallowing, he pushes forward, resting his forehead against Tate's back, his entire body heating up and almost vibrating with excitement. He's trying so, so hard to be quiet, or - to at least not move as much as he could, if he allowed himself to take everything he wanted. He keeps his thrusts slow and barely there, covering Tate's leg with his arm to hold his thighs together with as small of an amount of force as he can manage, and he barely gets the first inch of his cock between the warm hold of his body every time he presses in. In, out. In, out. So, so fucking slow, like Tate will break if he uses him too hard.
He's less quiet, as he exhales hot and shaky down Tate's shoulderblade. ]
Fffffuck.
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One little sigh, almost exasperated, before Tate's resigned to being awake. It's not that he's annoyed or anything - he's just tired. But that ebbs out of him when he grazes his hand down, feeling between his legs to touch the head of Derek's cock when it peeks through between the meat of his thighs. He flexes them tighter together, groaning just a little when he pushes his hips back to meet Derek.
He's done this with Peter - the other way around, though. He knows what it's like to fuck a tense, tight pair of thighs and how it can almost feel like the real thing. How in many ways its even better, because for how hard he choked on Derek's cock when it was in his mouth - Tate's not sure he'd fair all that much better with it in his ass, with little prep and the fucking woods all around them. This is much better, although he starts kicking his legs a bit to try and worm himself out of his sweats all together.]
You can go harder. Fuck me harder.
[Still an element of sleepiness to how he says that, but his attention's there - he looks back over his shoulder at Derek, dark eyes glinting with a sheen of moonlight. He laughs, light and airy, burying his face down against his bent arm before snorting soon after that.]
You're pretty horny for a guy who said he'd never fuck me.
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He looks up, when Tate looks back at him, only his eyes and the top of his nose visible from behind the curve of Tate's shoulder. He's making fun of Derek, and Derek... can't deny him, with the way his dick's almost red with need, the way his body feels hotter than it's ever felt. He audibly swallows and takes the joke kind of seriously, looking away from Tate, gently scraping his teeth over his skin to make him shiver before answering. ]
I... was trying to be good.
[ Trying to be good for Tate. Give him what he needs, rather than what he wants. Trying to be better than Kate was to him. Tate's convinced him that this is better, and that this is what he needs, and if that ever changes - they'll have to stop doing this.
He doesn't fuck Tate any harder, though, not yet. He buries his cock between Tate's thighs roughly half way deep, then moves his own hand to rest just an inch above Tate's dick. He's not sure if he wants to come again - he's not even sure how to ask - but he's giving Tate the suggestion of an offer to help, if he wants to take it. Quietly, he speaks up again. ]
Turn around. I want to see you.
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Made better, of course, by Derek's hand hovering over his dick. Tate's quick to swat at it, to pull it down over him to wrap around his cock. He squeezes his own fingers around Derek's to emphasize the needy point, his own cock half-hard but swelling the second he feels Derek's palm. He wants him to jerk him off, to keep this going - until he's told to turn over. And he pauses, looking back at Derek with a soft glance.
He pulls his hips away and thighs apart from one another, rolling over softly with a crinkling noise of the sleeping back and one last errant kick to ensure he's naked beneath it's cover. He faces Derek with a bit of a red face, blond curls damp to his forehead but his hands reaching out to touch Derek in an intimate way for the first time. He nods his head and shifts closer, thighs back together.]
If this isn't comfortable, it's your fault.
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It's still intimidating, on some level. He jerks Tate off in light, exploratory touches, his own cock made harder by the feeling of Tate filling his hand. He doesn't make a sound when Tate pulls back and obliges him by turning over, even though he feels kind of empty in those few seconds where they're apart, and when they're facing each other and Tate starts giving him shit, Derek just. Pulls a face. ]
Talking too much.
[ But this is what he wanted - eye contact, intimacy, a physical version of the closeness he should have tried harder to forge with his pack back home. Derek moves his hand to Tate's ass and pulls him closer, biting back the moan that threatens to rock out of him when the movement presses Tate's thighs back around him. He closes his eyes, gives himself time to adjust, then opens them again.
Tate's nose is right in front of his. In the dim light of the moon, Derek can see how long his lashes are, and vaguely, he can see that Tate's irises aren't black, but a very dark brown. He can feel Tate's breath against his lips, he can feel his cock hard against his stomach. He feels connected, and he slowly, slowly starts to fuck the tight gap of Tate's thighs, his hand squeezing Tate's ass like he's holding on for balance. He swallows, and he lets go, and he rests his arm up Tate's back, actually - embracing him. ]
Look at me. Don't... close your eyes.
[ He said it before, but - he wants to see Tate. Just like this. ]
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[Tate toys back, before he shuts himself up by biting his lip when Derek tugs him close. He's right up in his face, staring into his eyes and feeling the heat bounce back off his chest. His cock is brushing against Derek's abdomen while Derek's is nudging back between his legs and Tate's so keenly aware of every little motion they make. It feels like Derek's actually fucking him when he starts moving between his thighs again, for how close they are and how Tate really has nowhere else to look but directly into Derek's hazel eyes.
He holds his palm up against Derek's bicep, kneading his fingertips into it before sliding it under to hold on to his ribs instead. He finds a way of moving that helps go with what Derek's doing, gaze dropping only when he shifts his hips or feels like he wants to see how he's rocking but getting nothing but a spell of darkness and their bodies flush together. He's red in the face when he stares back into Derek's eyes, gingerly tipping forward his head to kiss him again - almost afraid to, but not sure what else suits the moment.]
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Fuck.
[ He's covering the inside of Tate's legs with precum, making him slick and warm and almost real. Derek keeps alternating between holding Tate still and letting him move, urging him to buck his hips against his own and help him, but through it all, he holds eye contact. He doesn't go in for a third kiss, but he leaves his lips apart so he can breathe Tate's breath, feel him, see the perfect brown of his eyes. It's - intense, like this. Real. ]
I... I wanna make you come again.
[ His hand moves lower, and lower still, until he's resting his middle finger against Tate's hole. He pitches his eyebrows up, like they're asking the question, asking for permission, rather than him. ]
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The moment is so absurdly intimate with how Tate stares into Derek's eyes, looking into the depths of his pupils and almost seeing something there beyond it all. His eyes briefly go out of focus before he blinks a few times in quick succession, Derek's finger pressing between the cheeks of his ass and making his movements suddenly stutter, clumsy and out of sync.
He nods his head, breath shallow and his features pinching because he doesn't know how to move properly for this. He wants to part his legs to encourage Derek's finger but struggles instead to keep them closed, for the sake of the cock bobbing between his thighs. He shifts forward to tuck his head in against Derek's chest, hoping he'll take the hint and lead how he wants to lead - because Tate's hand is skimming down between them to rub his cock, which is now hard from brushing against his abs.]
Mm, oh-okay.
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A second later, though, he stops. He pulls back from between Tate's thighs, slow and reluctant, and - he moves. He inches higher, moving until his cock is pressed flush to Tate's, wordlessly urging him to spread his legs a little wider apart, instead, to give Derek better access to his hole. Derek swallows, taking his hand back and wiping his fingers through the mess of precum he left on Tate's thigh, getting the tips of them wet. ]
Hand-- hand. Put your hand--
[ -- on him. On them. Derek grinds his cock against Tate's to make a point, dropping his neck forward so he can press a kiss to the top of Tate's hair. He closes his eyes, feeling his heart beat a little faster. ]
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All the while wondering what's coming next, feeling like a brick is weighing him down beneath his ribs. He tucks his chin in against his chest, looking at Derek before nuzzling up against his neck when he ducks close. He kisses his throat, rubbing his cheek against his jaw like a cat - feeling the prickle of stubble and exhaling hotly against the shell of his ear.]
I don't think- I can't...
[Always a wonder, trying to phrase "take your cock" in any more elegant of a way than that.]
Just your fingers, right?
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But it's - intoxicating. It's fulfilling, and every time, try as he might to pull himself back and stay in isolation, Derek just wants more. Tate strokes the two of them together and Derek feels his body go tense. He leans with restrained subtlety into every touch Tate gives him, moving into Tate's breath, rolling his hips to fuck up into his hand. He doesn't deserve this, but - it's all he wants? A mess of hands and more locked away in the overwhelming heat of a single sleeping bag with somebody he thinks the world of, while the rest of the world lives in the darkness and the cold around them. ]
... Yeah.
[ Just his fingers. Derek swallows, holding his head back to give Tate more access to his throat, and he moves his hand back from Tate's thighs, back up to his hole again. Precum might not be lube enough for Tate to open up for him, but - it's enough of a start. He presses one finger to his muscle, and then another. Not penetrating, but - preparing to. ]
Last thing I'd want to do is hurt you.
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[Tate nods his head a few times, staring at Derek and feeling his breath leave him in shallow pants when he works his hand down around their cocks. He can feel Derek rut his cock against his, and it wrenches from him a low groan that's outdone by the one that passes through his lips when Derek probes at his hole with his fingertips. Tate lolls his head back but pushes toward Derek's hand, muscle flexing with the want to be filled by him. Thoughts about pleading for his cock anyway fill his head but he fights them off, knowing this is far more than enough to do.
He drags his tongue down Derek's neck, sucking and beginning to bite red spots into purple as he feels precum run down the sides of their cocks and touch over his fingers. He squeezes his grip a bit tighter, groaning against Derek's throat as his teeth skip over it and his other hand reaches for Derek, just to grip on to him. To pull him closer, chasing the feeling of wanting to smother under his weight.]
I trust you.
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Tate tells him he trusts him and Derek ruts into him again, a needy push of his dick that slips in the combined lubrication of their precum. He swallows, adam's apple bobbing against Tate's lips. The arm he has draped around Tate's waist pulls him into Derek, and they physically can't get any closer than this. Derek wants Tate to keep kissing him, keep biting him, to make the marks worse, more visible, so that he'll be able to see them in the morning light before they heal over. He doesn't know how to ask, he just - bares his throat and lowly growls from the back of it when it feels like Tate's going to stop.
Gradually, he pushes his middle finger against Tate's hole. He's tight and he doesn't yield easily, and Derek is overly, overly careful, making this as smooth and as easy as it can be. Derek swallows, holds his breath, and eases the very tip of his finger into Tate, exhaling as he sinks into the first knuckle. ]
That's it. Good.
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He can feel Derek's finger begin to apply pressure and he tries - he really does - to relax for him. It's still something new to adjust to, especially like this, and he bites down on Derek's neck as if to show he's alright with it as he squirms and then holds steady. He feels it slowly sink in to him with a wet groan against Derek's neck, teeth sitting in the ridges they've left on his skin as he clamps down around Derek's finger and almost whimpers. Fuck, fuck, fuck.]
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Tate's grips onto Derek's finger as he pulls it back out of him, tight enough that it's like he's refusing to let go. Derek shivers, bucking his hips up, rustling the sleeping bag around him. He presses two fingers to Tate's hole, this time, wanting to see how much he'll stretch for him. He presses almost urgently against Tate until he yields and he takes him, dragging his fingers down to their second knuckles, insatiably needy and barely prepped. Fuck, fuck, he's so tight. ]
Fuck, Tate. [ He finds a rhythm, slower and smoother than each grind of his cock over Tate's. It takes a monumental effort to keep it that way. ] Fuck, you're so-- fuck, I bet you feel amazing. You'd make me come so fucking fast, you'd make me come harder than I've ever...
[ He swallows, shaking his head, cutting himself off. Tate's hole is intense, but Derek isn't going to push things too far. They need... time, they need a bed, they need proper, solid prep. He can't be greedy. ]
Fuck.
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Each slide of their bodies together provides the friction that leaks pre from his cock, making him ache to keep on rutting until he can come. But Derek's fingers keep him from pushing things, they keep him dazed almost with how much he enjoys it. He's tight, clenching tighter still around two fingers - partially in surprise and then just partially due to the fact he's still not used to this. His body never seems to adapt, to stretch and stay that way. He always reverts.]
Ff... Fuck.
[He breathes out hard through his nose, clutching to Derek and starting to plead under his breath each time they move. Pleading for more, trying to push against Derek's fingers while also staying in line for the way he's being rutted against in those desperately slow grinds. His cock twitches, aching to come and he knows with a soft whimper it's not going to take more than a few more rolls of Derek's hips or a stroke of his fingertips to make him seize. He just fights it off as best he can, features screwed together and his teeth showing in a pleasured grimace.]
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But - Derek still comes first. It doesn't happen suddenly. He's grinding against Tate so slowly and so easily that his climax builds in him agonizingly, agonizingly gradually, almost painful in how much time it takes to reach its peak. He's sweating and he's rigid and his mouth is dropped open in a silent moan, looking at Tate with half-lidded, unfocused eyes, clouded over by lust. He's barely fucking into Tate at all, when he gets there - just lightly frotting the head of his cock over Tate's, getting himself off through nerves over friction.
He comes almost as hard as he did the first time. Maybe harder, it's difficult to say. His hips bunch forward and he shoots between them, covering himself and Tate with the heavy shots of his load, his voice cracking and exhausted when he exhales out a fractured grunt of release. Derek's fingers shake a little and press more urgently into Tate, willing him along, trying to get him off at the same time. Trying to experience this together. ]
Tate-- Tate--
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He's breathing shallow, clutching to Derek with a grip that's too-tight in an unaware way, teeth set together so hard they start to hurt. Derek's cum hits him on the chest and Tate knows he's already at the cusp of coming, hovering right on the edge with a heady noise and staggering breath. One wrong move and he could lose it, the most precarious of positions - up until Derek's fingers drive into him and the warmth washes through him with a sudden, jagged edged release timed just seconds after Derek's.
Tate lets out a wrecked noise, head lolling heavily to the side as the quakes of it ring through him. He clenches tight to Derek's fingers, the feeling of them probing in him milking out an extra shot of cum that slides down his cock after the rest splatters between their bodies, the musky scent of sex and sweat hard to miss when he shifts and fails at lifting his head back up.]
I... I can't.
[Move. Breathe. Think.]
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The lack of sleep he's had tonight fucking gets to him. Derek steadily, steadily withdraws himself from Tate's ass, feeling a little alone when he loses the warm heat of him. His chest aches like he's been breathing too hard for his lungs to keep up with. He doesn't disentangle himself from Tate, even though he should - he just drops his arm around his side, heavy and dead. ]
Fuck.
[ It comes out more like fhck, because Derek's dropped his head down, his lip pulled back by the bicep he's using as a pillow and slurring because of it. Derek swallows, looking at Tate with a smile that's more dopey and drained than anything else. Derek looks almost blissful. That was... that was really, really fucking good. He feels fucked out. Drained. Happy. ]
Gonna... m'gonna pass out. I think.
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If he were more with it, he'd chide Derek for waking him up only to use him and flop back asleep. But Tate's tired too, more so now than ever, and he makes a still-hoarse sounding noise of acknowledgment that's almost a fond agreement. He's gonna pass out too, he thinks. But for a few moments of silence, Tate just lets his eyelids feel heavy and knows that he's safe? This feeling, he can trust it.]