[ living in a constant state of unease. trying to prepare himself for the next inevitable city-shifting cataclysm that sends everyone back into a brainless frenzy of fucking and feeling bad. dealing with stiles' cat who just threw up on his shirt. a lot of things on his plate right now. ]
Nothing. I don't know. Figuring out how to ask Stiles out on a date, despite having done that a good dozen times by now. Being critically aware of how socially awkward I am. What's up with you?
You could always just follow his lead. See how often he says it. Go with that. Could practice on me. Tell me he's your boyfriend a few times. See if it feels okay.
["hung out" as teens do, sexually, together. in places they were granted permission]
we just kinda figured we'd try it i mean it's not... ideal and we're gonna see other people too but it's kinda nice to know someone... wants to date me? idk. feels weird, too. like...
Right. You're lucky I like you. You haven't commended me once for not getting all territorial and possessive over you and the treehouse. Unbelievable, Langdon.
I don't know why you feel weird about that. You've dated before. You're boyfriend material. Besides, have you met half the people your age around here? Slim fucking pickings.
If you feel like you have it in you to move on, then you need to move on. You don't want to carry your history around with you. Does fucked up things to your head.
you think it's possible to get away from your history?
i want to. feels like it's always there, though. ready to pop up again and ruin everything i'm trying to work for. i feel like i'd let it, too, if - if i don't somehow move on.
Trying. Hasn't worked so far. I mean, I literally have the word "guilt" tattooed across my throat. This city doesn't exactly afford you too many opportunities to find personal growth. Take it where you can get it.
Anyway. Somebody likes you. You like them back. I know this is rich, coming from me, but you don't have to overthink everything. Just let yourself be happy.
[he thinks about asking why derek didn't get his word removed but this bad territory? okay, nvm.]
i guess ur right. shockingly. his dom's throwing a surprise party for him later this month you wanna come? you met him, totally count as a friend friend of a... boyfriend, too.
Are you inviting because you think that I would actually enjoy attending a teenager's birthday party, or are you asking me to be there to support you? Because I'll go, if you want me there, but if you're just trying to be nice, maybe run it by Stiles instead. He's the party animal.
[ it's hard for derek to tell how tate really feels - something that's been getting progressively more notable since he lost his heartbeat. derek just doesn't really understand him as easily as he used to, even over text. he's not sure if tate feels uncertain about being there on his own or not, he's not sure what tate wants from him at all - so he just doesn't answer, for now. ]
Well, let me know if I'll need to avoid the treehouse when your birthday rolls around. Now that you're dating someone, we're going to be more aggressive about hanging socks off of door handles.
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Boo-irthday.
Do you get it?
Boo-irthday.
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i just wanted to say hey. opened pandora's dogdoor instead
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[ this is still happening. sorry. ]
Because he had nobody to go with.
Haha.
Wait, fuck.
I think that's supposed to be a skeleton.
Whatever, still works.
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this is a hurtful fucking joke man
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Okay, that's enough.
Hi.
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Nothing. I don't know.
Figuring out how to ask Stiles out on a date, despite having done that a good dozen times by now.
Being critically aware of how socially awkward I am.
What's up with you?
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not hard right? that's what uh
dating people do, right?
quick q: do u call urselves boyfriends?
or just say ur dating?
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He's my boyfriend.
[ brief flutter of panic. has derek not called stiles his boyfriend enough? shit, is derek a bad boyfriend? fuck, god damn it. ]
Why?
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peter and i kinda agreed to be something
but i don't know if i'm supposed to say boyfriend a lot?
like
you and stiles seem like u have it figured out
so i guess i wanna just be as confident about it as u are
so.
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Congratulations.
I'm glad you're moving on.
[ from violet. derek hopes that wasn't... a delicate thing to say. ]
It's up to you. Up to both of you.
Do you feel weird about using the B word?
Do you feel weird about him using the B word?
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it's still kinda new for me
saying that stuff out loud.
guess it won't get any easier til i get used to it, right?
i don't want him to think i'm ashamed or anything
cause i like him. a lot. obviously
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You could always just follow his lead.
See how often he says it. Go with that.
Could practice on me. Tell me he's your boyfriend a few times. See if it feels okay.
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practice sounds kinda dorky though
what are you up to?
we dont have to talk about my weird life
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I don't mind talking about your weird life.
I'm not doing anything.
[ a pause. derek considers bringing up his run in with kavinsky, but. now's not the time. ]
What inspired you and Peter to step things up?
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i love you situation
when we hung out in the treehouse?
["hung out" as teens do, sexually, together. in places they were granted permission]
we just kinda figured we'd try it
i mean it's not... ideal and we're gonna see other people too but
it's kinda nice to know someone... wants to date me?
idk. feels weird, too. like...
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You're lucky I like you. You haven't commended me once for not getting all territorial and possessive over you and the treehouse.
Unbelievable, Langdon.
I don't know why you feel weird about that. You've dated before. You're boyfriend material.
Besides, have you met half the people your age around here?
Slim fucking pickings.
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thinking it could happen any minute and just. not wanting to give up on it
feels weird to just. date someone else.
but it's better this way, right?
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You don't want to carry your history around with you. Does fucked up things to your head.
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i want to. feels like it's always there, though.
ready to pop up again and ruin everything i'm trying to work for.
i feel like i'd let it, too, if - if i don't somehow move on.
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Hasn't worked so far.
I mean, I literally have the word "guilt" tattooed across my throat. This city doesn't exactly afford you too many opportunities to find personal growth.
Take it where you can get it.
Anyway.
Somebody likes you. You like them back.
I know this is rich, coming from me, but you don't have to overthink everything. Just let yourself be happy.
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i guess ur right. shockingly.
his dom's throwing a surprise party for him later this month
you wanna come? you met him, totally count as a friend
friend of a... boyfriend, too.
(that felt real forced)
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Are you inviting because you think that I would actually enjoy attending a teenager's birthday party, or are you asking me to be there to support you?
Because I'll go, if you want me there, but if you're just trying to be nice, maybe run it by Stiles instead.
He's the party animal.
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but i'm ok either way. gotta get used to this stuff
he's already teasing me about my birthday?
which is kinda nice. first time that's happened in...
a while.
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Well, let me know if I'll need to avoid the treehouse when your birthday rolls around.
Now that you're dating someone, we're going to be more aggressive about hanging socks off of door handles.
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