Well... thank you. I'm not really sure what to say. It means a lot to hear that from you.
[ he's always kind of worried about failing tate, after all. ]
You're doing well. I know it's hard. But you're doing well. Likely because - well - you already have an affinity for looking out for people. You've always given me the impression that you were protective of your sister. You've always cared about me. Look how much you're caring about Marcus, now. I'm sure there are others. Providing for the people you love certainly feels like a trait of yours.
You felt over your head as a sub, too. We all feel over our heads here.
I don't think you're stupid. Little worried you might be overextending yourself, but if you think you can handle this, there's nothing wrong with trying. Could break it off after three months. Goes without saying that if you ever need help - money, somewhere to go to take a break - you only need to ask. You're not alone in this.
I would. I spent a long time just wanting to hide away. Be with Stiles, be with you. Angry with being here, scared to leave whatever safe bubble I managed to hide away in. But. Feels cowardly, after a while. Stagnant. If I can do something good for someone good, I'd like to at least try.
There's more to being a good Dom than just... helping as many people as you can. There's a level of risk involved, chasing after a lifestyle like that. All those people relying on you. All that vulnerability, exposed. I wouldn't ask Stiles to put himself in a position like that. One of danger. One of susceptibility. I would rather he stay as safe as possible.
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It means a lot to hear that from you.
[ he's always kind of worried about failing tate, after all. ]
You're doing well. I know it's hard. But you're doing well.
Likely because - well - you already have an affinity for looking out for people. You've always given me the impression that you were protective of your sister. You've always cared about me. Look how much you're caring about Marcus, now. I'm sure there are others.
Providing for the people you love certainly feels like a trait of yours.
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i still feel over my head sometimes
i'm responsible for marcus
and well
another friend asked if i could spot him with a contract
do you think i'm stupid for agreeing?
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We all feel over our heads here.
I don't think you're stupid.
Little worried you might be overextending yourself, but if you think you can handle this, there's nothing wrong with trying. Could break it off after three months.
Goes without saying that if you ever need help - money, somewhere to go to take a break - you only need to ask.
You're not alone in this.
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you're good at this. i like it.
i think i'm okay
it's not a forever thing
but a friend thing? i think
if u were a dom rn
do u think ud take on more subs if u could?
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I would.
I spent a long time just wanting to hide away. Be with Stiles, be with you. Angry with being here, scared to leave whatever safe bubble I managed to hide away in.
But.
Feels cowardly, after a while. Stagnant.
If I can do something good for someone good, I'd like to at least try.
Why?
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i wish you could. wish things were like they were
maybe stiles can do it then
if u both agree on some people
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It was better before.
Easier.
I felt safer. You felt safer, I think.
Probably why they made us switch.
I don't think Stiles would be interested in that.
Which - honestly - I can't say I blame him for.
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u said u would wanna do good for people
he could too.
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[ he considers leaving it there, but - ]
There's more to being a good Dom than just... helping as many people as you can.
There's a level of risk involved, chasing after a lifestyle like that.
All those people relying on you. All that vulnerability, exposed.
I wouldn't ask Stiles to put himself in a position like that. One of danger. One of susceptibility.
I would rather he stay as safe as possible.
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[Still bitter about it, Tate's jealousy still sitting there saying hello.]
do u want to come by later
just to hang out a bit
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[ kind of a response to both parts of tate's message, there. ]
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just want 2 chill n lean on u
if thats cool
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Yeah, okay.
I can do that.
[ dot dot dot dot dot. ]
Platonically?
Or.
[ should he, you know. bring over the werewolf rubbers and werewolf lube or whatever. ]
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i know which one i'd prefer