Yes. Yes. I would. In a heartbeat. But I don't want you to think that in order for us to preserve our relationship, you have to promise to sign with me when your contract runs out. If you want to stay with Kavinsky - all of the worry I've been throwing in your face doesn't matter. Shouldn't matter. You want the agency to make your own decisions, and I don't want to take that away from you.
Even if I hate that you did this, and even if I feel like I have to leave so I don't have to watch you fucking die again - you said you trust him, for whatever inane reason. I don't get it, but. Not my place to understand. I'm not involved in this. I just care about you. A lot. Your feelings matter more than mine. That's how it's supposed to be, when you care about someone. So. Don't... take my yes as a way to hold you hostage.
[ derek spent a long time talking to tate, and even to stiles, about how he wanted to cut this kid out. how sitting here and watching him kill himself, either on purpose or incidentally, was way too much for him to deal with. he still feels betrayed, he still feels-- hurt, but.
he's always been too sentimental for his own good. always been willing to get hurt, for the sake of love or friendship or family. he and tate are starting to feel salvageable. they don't... need to end what they have over this. not necessarily. ]
Tate. If you really don't want me to leave - then I need to be completely, crystal clear about this.
I want to sign a contract with you. Pretty fucking badly. It's not something you need to "earn". I would do it today, if I could. I know I'd be good for you. Better than anyone else. The second your contract's up, I'm going tell you that I want you, and I'm going to ask you if you want me, too. You can say no, when I do. It's fine. Your decision. Not pressuring you either way. But I want you to really, truly understand that if this is on the table, then I'm going to be committed to it. If you're just asking if I'll sign you because you think it's what I need to be in your life - it's not. It's just what I want. Like the bite. Doesn't have to happen. Now's your chance to shoot me down.
[When has Tate ever made a great decision in his life? Everything circles around the fact he is selfish and has wants, desires - needs. He justifies everything in his head and he believes it without a doubt. Empathy is something hard for him to come by, if it doesn't extend from something he wants or needs nearby. It makes for leading people on, feeding them what they want to hear because he needs them not seem terrible. Kavinsky promised him he'd stay, he'd care for him - and Tate holds him to it. knowing full well that he struggles with losing Ronan, he shouldn't be so quick to already be making plans to abandon him.
But he has three months to figure this out. To make something else happen - who knows if they'll still be here in July? He can work it out. He can promise Derek and Kavinsky the same things and somehow, in the end, it'll work out. Because he wants it to. That makes sense.]
I want that July 13th. okay? you come and you ask me and i'll answer.
until then we're still friends i'll work on getting better. being better. someone you'd be proud to sign. someone who can help you i'll work on being good pack. i promise. it's what I want.
[ he's not... being malicious, and he doesn't realize he's being kind of manipulative, but in derek's mind - this is already done. he said that tate had the freedom to choose who he wants, and he meant that, but he doesn't believe for a second that tate will choose anyone over him. july 13. tate's going to be his sub, just like he was always meant to be. this is all gonna be worth it, in the end. ]
I'm gonna be good for you, too. Now, and later, once I'm your Dom. No more fights, no more - worrying, without listening to you first. I'm trusting you, so. Trust me, too. Okay?
[ he's not... really salty anymore, now that he knows tate's going to sign with him in a few months, so. that doesn't really annoy him like it might have, yesterday. ]
That's... good, actually. Going to be easier to spend more time with you. In whatever capacity.
[ should he say anything else? he considers saying something-- reassuring again, about their future, about how better things will be in july, but. that's... putting pressure on tate. which he said he wouldn't do. so.
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when my contract ends?
in july.
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Yes. I would. In a heartbeat.
But I don't want you to think that in order for us to preserve our relationship, you have to promise to sign with me when your contract runs out.
If you want to stay with Kavinsky - all of the worry I've been throwing in your face doesn't matter. Shouldn't matter. You want the agency to make your own decisions, and I don't want to take that away from you.
Even if I hate that you did this, and even if I feel like I have to leave so I don't have to watch you fucking die again - you said you trust him, for whatever inane reason.
I don't get it, but. Not my place to understand. I'm not involved in this.
I just care about you. A lot. Your feelings matter more than mine. That's how it's supposed to be, when you care about someone.
So. Don't... take my yes as a way to hold you hostage.
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if i earn it. like i want to.
I don't want you to leave
please don't feel that way.
I'll do better.
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he's always been too sentimental for his own good. always been willing to get hurt, for the sake of love or friendship or family. he and tate are starting to feel salvageable. they don't... need to end what they have over this. not necessarily. ]
Tate.
If you really don't want me to leave - then I need to be completely, crystal clear about this.
I want to sign a contract with you. Pretty fucking badly.
It's not something you need to "earn". I would do it today, if I could.
I know I'd be good for you. Better than anyone else.
The second your contract's up, I'm going tell you that I want you, and I'm going to ask you if you want me, too.
You can say no, when I do. It's fine. Your decision. Not pressuring you either way.
But I want you to really, truly understand that if this is on the table, then I'm going to be committed to it.
If you're just asking if I'll sign you because you think it's what I need to be in your life - it's not.
It's just what I want. Like the bite. Doesn't have to happen.
Now's your chance to shoot me down.
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But he has three months to figure this out. To make something else happen - who knows if they'll still be here in July? He can work it out. He can promise Derek and Kavinsky the same things and somehow, in the end, it'll work out. Because he wants it to. That makes sense.]
I want that
July 13th. okay?
you come and you ask me
and i'll answer.
until then we're still friends
i'll work on getting better. being better.
someone you'd be proud to sign. someone who can help you
i'll work on being good pack. i promise.
it's what I want.
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[ he's not... being malicious, and he doesn't realize he's being kind of manipulative, but in derek's mind - this is already done. he said that tate had the freedom to choose who he wants, and he meant that, but he doesn't believe for a second that tate will choose anyone over him. july 13. tate's going to be his sub, just like he was always meant to be. this is all gonna be worth it, in the end. ]
I'm gonna be good for you, too.
Now, and later, once I'm your Dom.
No more fights, no more - worrying, without listening to you first.
I'm trusting you, so. Trust me, too.
Okay?
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I'll do everything to keep your trust in me, too.
can I come to the beach next week
and hang out with you?
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[ if he's not busy with stiles. haha, that's going to be a wild conversation. ]
Just - you know.
Alone.
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just us. we can talk or train or whatever
i'm going to be in the up more so it's easier to just
come around.
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[ he's not... really salty anymore, now that he knows tate's going to sign with him in a few months, so. that doesn't really annoy him like it might have, yesterday. ]
That's... good, actually.
Going to be easier to spend more time with you. In whatever capacity.
I'll see you then.
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guess we should be responsible ppl and go to sleep rn right
not that I'm tired but yeah, guess I should try anyway
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[ should he say anything else? he considers saying something-- reassuring again, about their future, about how better things will be in july, but. that's... putting pressure on tate. which he said he wouldn't do. so.
that's enough. ]
Night.
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[He feels mildly better now. Maybe he will be able to sleep.]