Disappointed, then. I'm not asking because I think you're wrong to feel however you feel, or... because I'm worried about how you're handling this, or anything. I know you. I trust you. So. I'm just asking how much you like him.
Was contracting with him the right idea? Not that I'm - you know. I know I can be overbearing. If this feels right to you, then, I mean - great. But. It's not going to feel bad, or anything? Being around someone you care for like that every day.
You know, I was kind of scared you'd just throw yourself in prison and refuse to come out until I signed with you again. Kind of happy you found another contract before your deadline was up.
i wouldn't have done anything that would've disappointed u i'm not looking to be a brat. i wanted to do like u said, and try... something else growth or whatever
sometime ill introduce u until then how are u doing
I know. You haven't disappointed me. You don't disappoint me.
[ This whole separation thing has been pretty hard on Derek, but he's not sure if he can say that - feels shitty to say I miss you when he's the one who ended the contract, both because it feels selfish and because it's validating something he doesn't want to be validated. The contract doesn't impact their relationship in any way, they're still as close a pair of friends now as they ever were, and he doesn't want to imply otherwise. He's not going to buy into the city's bullshit. Least of all out loud. To Tate. Growth, or whatever. ]
I'm okay. I guess. Better, with Stiles being back. Been kind of rough, but. You know. I'm glad to hear from you. Always am. Makes my day better.
Trial and error. I had experience looking after people before I came here. You did too. Your siblings. You're not going into this blind. You can do this. I'm here to help, if you can't. I'll babysit, or something.
I wouldn't have told you to try and explore your options if I didn't have faith in you. Things are only scary right now because they're new. Once you get past the first few hurdles, things won't feel so intimidating. Besides - think of all the stupid dominants you've met here. Half of them are fucking braindead. If they can do it, so can you.
Plus, you're not in this contract alone. He can work. Bring in money. His wellbeing isn't entirely on your shoulders, even if the city might want you to think otherwise.
[ Derek chooses to just say what he wants, for once, instead of dancing around it and rolling his eyes. They both knew that's where things were gonna go anyway, but - well, if he can't get all possessive over Tate out loud, he can at least blow a load on his face. Win/win. ]
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[ like how he used to park outside of kavinsky's house when he and tate were contracted. does tate know about that? probably not. doesn't matter. ]
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his name's marcus
he's probably gonna be at the treehouse a bit til i find somewhere for him
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I don't like him.
[ ... ]
Sorry. Yes.
I'm sure he's fine. Good.
Tell me about him.
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so it's nice to know someone else who doesn't understand whatever the fuck mp3s are
we exchanged mix tapes
[And, you know, crushing is happening.]
he's "into girls" tho
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You've mentioned him. I think.
I take it you're upset about that. Him being "into girls".
Does he know?
[ that you're upset about that. that you like him. ]
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we fooled around a bit before
but it's not gonna be a thing
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I'm not asking because I think you're wrong to feel however you feel, or... because I'm worried about how you're handling this, or anything.
I know you. I trust you. So.
I'm just asking how much you like him.
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he knows i like him
i guess that's why it feels shitty
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Was contracting with him the right idea?
Not that I'm - you know. I know I can be overbearing. If this feels right to you, then, I mean - great.
But.
It's not going to feel bad, or anything? Being around someone you care for like that every day.
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if it doesn't work it's only 3 months
better than nothing, right? i'm helping him out of a tough spot
he's gonna pull his weight too, he said
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You know, I was kind of scared you'd just throw yourself in prison and refuse to come out until I signed with you again.
Kind of happy you found another contract before your deadline was up.
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i'm not looking to be a brat. i wanted to do like u said, and try... something else
growth or whatever
sometime ill introduce u
until then how are u doing
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[ This whole separation thing has been pretty hard on Derek, but he's not sure if he can say that - feels shitty to say I miss you when he's the one who ended the contract, both because it feels selfish and because it's validating something he doesn't want to be validated. The contract doesn't impact their relationship in any way, they're still as close a pair of friends now as they ever were, and he doesn't want to imply otherwise. He's not going to buy into the city's bullshit. Least of all out loud. To Tate. Growth, or whatever. ]
I'm okay. I guess. Better, with Stiles being back.
Been kind of rough, but. You know.
I'm glad to hear from you. Always am. Makes my day better.
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just to hang out a bit.
[He needs someone familiar to anchor him back down, just for a little while.]
i feel like
well i think i'm stressed
how'd u ever take care of subs?
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I'll swing by when I can.
Trial and error. I had experience looking after people before I came here.
You did too. Your siblings.
You're not going into this blind. You can do this.
I'm here to help, if you can't. I'll babysit, or something.
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it was one thing that i took care of them and i can do that part here i just
i feel like i can't handle it.
paying rent and taking care of someone
like really being responsible...
[#doubt]
i feel like i'm gonna explode a bit
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Things are only scary right now because they're new. Once you get past the first few hurdles, things won't feel so intimidating.
Besides - think of all the stupid dominants you've met here. Half of them are fucking braindead.
If they can do it, so can you.
Plus, you're not in this contract alone.
He can work. Bring in money.
His wellbeing isn't entirely on your shoulders, even if the city might want you to think otherwise.
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i know ur right
and i just gotta let it settle
but it just feels like so much
also makes me wonder how u let me get away with so much
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[ dot dot dot. ]
Can I do anything?
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u'll still help me with treehouse stuff right
[And pay for those expenses. Or make Stiles do so, he guesses.]
that'd help
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[ Should probably raise a red flag that Tate is still leaning on him, but Derek's Derek, so. He doesn't really think about it. ]
I could teach you how to fix things around the house, too, maybe.
You could see how it's done. Just in case I'm ever not around to help you.
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i'd like that. i wanna learn to do stuff like that
i never did back home, since i didn't have a dad
and larry was a pussy
[...]
do i need to buy some tools?
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Well, I'm happy to teach you the things you didn't learn back home.
[ hard to say "i'll be ur daddy" and not feel kinda weird, given all the fucking, but you know. moving on. ]
I'll buy you some.
Could be a good way to commemorate your newfound independence.
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i'll clean up a little and make a list of all the shit that needs working on
we can work thru it together, whenever.
is there anything i can do for u in return?
if u say no i'm still gonna do something
bjs aren't off the table
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[ Derek chooses to just say what he wants, for once, instead of dancing around it and rolling his eyes. They both knew that's where things were gonna go anyway, but - well, if he can't get all possessive over Tate out loud, he can at least blow a load on his face. Win/win. ]
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