I was thinking more "put some fairy lights around the treehouse and tell Marcus you want to spend the holidays with him" than something so extreme and permanent. Maybe get him a present that would mean a lot to him, though? That's permanent enough.
Don't confuse hesitation or someone needing time with rejection. Even if he doesn't understand what you're trying to offer him or isn't on the same page as you, if he still wants to stick around or be with you, he's just figuring things out. Communicating with you. No healthy relationship is based on two people saying yes to each other about everything.
thanks. i like it when i can talk to you about stuff like this. you always know the answers. or the better answers, anyway. i'd be lost on my own. sometimes i think being dead dead was way easier than this
Probably was, in some ways. Life is hard. Less lonely, though. Less cold.
[ ... ]
I don't think I know the answers, really. I just know you, and I care about you, so I want to help you to the best of my ability. And - I don't think you would be lost on your own. You're smart. Capable. Always growing, whether you see it or not. You don't need me as much as you think you do.
Not that I'm planning on leaving you any time soon. Just saying. Give yourself credit. Helping people isn't really my forte, I've found. If something I say resonates with you, it's because you feel like it's the right thing to do. You would have come up with the same answers if you'd given yourself time to think them through.
you've never failed to help me before it's something you're good at. being a guardian. that's what i wanna be like. like you, able to do that for other people
it's hard though. beyond the whole relationship shit providing in general. how the fuck do you manage it? i kind of miss being a sub sometimes letting all that shit be someone else's problem
Well... thank you. I'm not really sure what to say. It means a lot to hear that from you.
[ he's always kind of worried about failing tate, after all. ]
You're doing well. I know it's hard. But you're doing well. Likely because - well - you already have an affinity for looking out for people. You've always given me the impression that you were protective of your sister. You've always cared about me. Look how much you're caring about Marcus, now. I'm sure there are others. Providing for the people you love certainly feels like a trait of yours.
You felt over your head as a sub, too. We all feel over our heads here.
I don't think you're stupid. Little worried you might be overextending yourself, but if you think you can handle this, there's nothing wrong with trying. Could break it off after three months. Goes without saying that if you ever need help - money, somewhere to go to take a break - you only need to ask. You're not alone in this.
I would. I spent a long time just wanting to hide away. Be with Stiles, be with you. Angry with being here, scared to leave whatever safe bubble I managed to hide away in. But. Feels cowardly, after a while. Stagnant. If I can do something good for someone good, I'd like to at least try.
There's more to being a good Dom than just... helping as many people as you can. There's a level of risk involved, chasing after a lifestyle like that. All those people relying on you. All that vulnerability, exposed. I wouldn't ask Stiles to put himself in a position like that. One of danger. One of susceptibility. I would rather he stay as safe as possible.
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Maybe get him a present that would mean a lot to him, though?
That's permanent enough.
Don't confuse hesitation or someone needing time with rejection.
Even if he doesn't understand what you're trying to offer him or isn't on the same page as you, if he still wants to stick around or be with you, he's just figuring things out. Communicating with you.
No healthy relationship is based on two people saying yes to each other about everything.
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thanks.
i like it when i can talk to you about stuff like this. you always know the answers.
or the better answers, anyway. i'd be lost on my own.
sometimes i think being dead dead was way easier than this
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Less lonely, though.
Less cold.
[ ... ]
I don't think I know the answers, really. I just know you, and I care about you, so I want to help you to the best of my ability.
And - I don't think you would be lost on your own. You're smart. Capable. Always growing, whether you see it or not.
You don't need me as much as you think you do.
Not that I'm planning on leaving you any time soon.
Just saying.
Give yourself credit.
Helping people isn't really my forte, I've found. If something I say resonates with you, it's because you feel like it's the right thing to do. You would have come up with the same answers if you'd given yourself time to think them through.
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it's something you're good at. being a guardian.
that's what i wanna be like. like you, able to do that for other people
it's hard though. beyond the whole relationship shit
providing in general. how the fuck do you manage it?
i kind of miss being a sub sometimes
letting all that shit be someone else's problem
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It means a lot to hear that from you.
[ he's always kind of worried about failing tate, after all. ]
You're doing well. I know it's hard. But you're doing well.
Likely because - well - you already have an affinity for looking out for people. You've always given me the impression that you were protective of your sister. You've always cared about me. Look how much you're caring about Marcus, now. I'm sure there are others.
Providing for the people you love certainly feels like a trait of yours.
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i still feel over my head sometimes
i'm responsible for marcus
and well
another friend asked if i could spot him with a contract
do you think i'm stupid for agreeing?
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We all feel over our heads here.
I don't think you're stupid.
Little worried you might be overextending yourself, but if you think you can handle this, there's nothing wrong with trying. Could break it off after three months.
Goes without saying that if you ever need help - money, somewhere to go to take a break - you only need to ask.
You're not alone in this.
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you're good at this. i like it.
i think i'm okay
it's not a forever thing
but a friend thing? i think
if u were a dom rn
do u think ud take on more subs if u could?
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I would.
I spent a long time just wanting to hide away. Be with Stiles, be with you. Angry with being here, scared to leave whatever safe bubble I managed to hide away in.
But.
Feels cowardly, after a while. Stagnant.
If I can do something good for someone good, I'd like to at least try.
Why?
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i wish you could. wish things were like they were
maybe stiles can do it then
if u both agree on some people
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It was better before.
Easier.
I felt safer. You felt safer, I think.
Probably why they made us switch.
I don't think Stiles would be interested in that.
Which - honestly - I can't say I blame him for.
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u said u would wanna do good for people
he could too.
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[ he considers leaving it there, but - ]
There's more to being a good Dom than just... helping as many people as you can.
There's a level of risk involved, chasing after a lifestyle like that.
All those people relying on you. All that vulnerability, exposed.
I wouldn't ask Stiles to put himself in a position like that. One of danger. One of susceptibility.
I would rather he stay as safe as possible.
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[Still bitter about it, Tate's jealousy still sitting there saying hello.]
do u want to come by later
just to hang out a bit
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[ kind of a response to both parts of tate's message, there. ]
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just want 2 chill n lean on u
if thats cool
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Yeah, okay.
I can do that.
[ dot dot dot dot dot. ]
Platonically?
Or.
[ should he, you know. bring over the werewolf rubbers and werewolf lube or whatever. ]
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i know which one i'd prefer